♡ Harry Styles ♡ {Imagines}

Consequences.

I Flipped through the pictures, Slightly smiling at each one of my long gone memories. Missing my Family can honestly be very tiring sometimes, and makes me so homesick that I feel like Just leaving Uni and Heading straight Back home to My mum and Dad.

I Kept going through the pictures until I reached one. One that I should've got rid of a very long time ago but I just couldn't throw it or any of the other ones with it away. One that Brings back Flashes of Memories with Him.

Pictures that Bring back so much Love, so much happiness, so much silliness, so much Heartbreak and so Much pain all at the same time. Pictures of sleepless nights and 1am conversions. Pictures that were taken in the Best part of my life, but were thrown in the Box at the worst time.

Pictures that Broke my heart into unfixable pieces.

It was all because of Him. Loving him was Young, wild and Free. But at the same time Loving him was Cold, Dark and Dumb. Loving Him was sunshine, but then it rained. Loving him Broke me. Loving him made me who I am today.

All the Dirty tissues, trust issues, lonely pillows on a strangers bed and little voices in my Head were all Because of Him. He was One to make me feel like a Queen, His Queen. But He was also the one that made me Feel like Useless trash on the street.

He Made me Feel so Fu.cking Happy. The Happiest I've ever felt, in fact. But He was also the reason I was in one of my darkest places.

He Made me feel like I wasn't Worth shit to him. He Used me. He broke me. He spat on my Dignity and pride. He Embarrassed me. He Made me feel Like I was Nothing.

I think He's one of the people that I'll actually never Forget, He affected me in ways that I can't even Begin to describe. He managed to Change me To the worst. He woke up the Demons in My head, after silencing them for so long.

I was Hurting because of Him. For so fu.cking long. My Heart was Bleeding, I was in Pain. But he didn't care, Not even abit. He left me when I was going through a very rough time.

And He made me Feel Crazy. He made me Feel like it was My fault. Because of him, I lost so much more than My senses. I lost Everything when I lost him.

Loving Him was a Beautiful fairytale that ended to be one of my worst Nightmares.

Loving Him Was Safe and Sound, a Place I can let down all my Defences.

Loving Him Was Comfortable, but Ended with Awkward conversations and Low expectations.

Loving Him was cheap. Loving Him still takes shots at Me.

Loving Him Had Consequences.