♡ Harry Styles ♡ {Imagines}

Where you at, Dad ?

( DDM )

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I Sat On My Bed, Tears slowly Falling down my Face continuously. I Look Up to see my Little Baby brother standing next to my Door frame, A very sad look on his Face and for a moment, It looked like He actually knows what's going on. At the Age of 17, I Had to learn to raise my Little brother alone because of the problems between my Parents. And At the Age of 10, I already knew Thing that Kid's my Age shouldn't know because of How Fu.cked up my Life was.

I Had to Watch my Dad Take pill's and Drink a Bottle after the other, Yelling and Hitting my Mother until she Finally decided to leave him, But she didn't only leave Him, She us too. I grew up on the streets, Working Three different Jobs to pay for Rent and essentials, The last time I went to school was when I was 13 Years old Because Alcohol and Pill's were more important to my Dad than my Education and Future.

I Don't know what It feels like to Be addicted to Pill's, But Every time my Fathers Image pop's into my Head, I Feel Like I know what it's like Because of the Amount of Pain it caused me.

They say Pain is a Prison, and my whole life I've been trying to get out of my Cell. I Don't know how I learnt to Survive on my Own, But It's not like there was any other choice.

My Dad would always tell me that He's proud of me for that but he doesn't know me that well, He doesn't know me at all. And sometimes when I look at the Picture of Him that I have in my room, I would think that I don't need a picture, I need the real thing.

My Dad doesn't deserve to be called a Dad, Because He wasn't there for anything in my life, I would be surprised if he even knows my Name. Sometimes I'd wish My Dad was here with me, But then I remember him and all I feel is Pain, I hate the way I remember him.

Was It worth it ?

My Father gave Everything to them pill bottles.

He gave his love, His Time and He made them his priority.

He Gave his life to them pill bottles.

I Wish I can say that I forgive my Father for Ruining my Life and Taking away My Future from me and What it feels like to Have parents.

"Rest in peace, Mr. Harry Edward styles, A Father, A brother, and an Uncle to many."

And All of a sudden, When I opened my eyes and blinked at the sight in front of me, I can see myself in front of my Father's Coffin Again. And It took everything in my not to scream in pain as I relived the memory.

And As I stood there, staring at what's left from my Dad, I Started feeling like I lost something I never Had. And The feeling was Worst than anything I've ever Felt because it's sad to think that thing's could've gone differently, and There would've been a better ending to my Father's story but The Damn Fu.cking Pill's ruined it all.

I closed my Eyes, Opening my eyes again to see My baby Brother still standing in front of me and Holding his Teddy bear in his Hand. I Opened my arms wide for him, The tears flowing and Heart Filled with Sadness and Anger that someone as Young as my Brother is going to have to deal with this too.

How do you explain to a Child that Their Dad is Dead because of an Addiction that made him forget His wife, His Kids and the purpose of life.

How do you explain to A child that their Mother Didn't only leave Their Dad, but left them too because of How selfish she was.

Where you at, Mama?

Where You at, Dad ?

Don't you want to watch your Babies grow?

I Held my Little brother tighter, Realising that he's all I have now and He's my Ride or die Now. And I'll try to give him the best left since mine didn't turn out so good.

I thought of The fact that The last Time I spoke to My Father before his Death was A Few months Before it and It was An argument full of screaming because I was trying to give him a piece of my mind but The last thing my Father did before His Death was pick up the pill bottle and Taking it.

Sometimes I wish I would've Called him, Picked up the Phone and Called him one last time.

But The pill's have got him, Right?

Pill's will always be more important.