Dark energy (SABRINA X READER)

S2 Chapter 8- Waves

*A/N warning. This chapter contains depression and sexual content. If you are sensitive to this please think twice before reading it. I don't know if it could trigger anything.*

"Why did you do it? Why did you hurt yourself like that?" The water was barely moving, sometimes when a water droplet fell from a strand of hair, into the bath it made a ripple but besides that it was not moving.

I don't shift my gaze from the water. I'm just as silent as it.
With one hand she grabs my right arm and with the other she forces me to look at her.

In other circumstances this might have looked like a hot make-out scene.
Two girls sitting completely naked in front of each other in the bathtub. It wasn't though. It was the aftermath of a self harm massacre.

"Answer me. Why. Did. You. Hurt. Yourself," She said calm but stern.

A single tear escapes my eyes but it could have easily been mistaken for water from the tub.

"I'm a disappointment Sabrina," My gaze moves back to the water.

"To who? Your parents? You don't have those. You don't have anyone above you, no one to prove yourself to so how could you ever be a disappointment?" She says forcing me to look at her again.

I had trouble to keep looking her in the eyes. I was just so tired. The blood lust that once empowered my every move now felt like it had burned out. It was like someone put water over a fire and that is what is now left of me.

"You know it's weird. All these bad things happened to me so long ago but right now I feel so bad about it. Why now? Of course I felt bad about it then but why do I feel bad about it now? And why does it hurt so much? Why is it draining me?" More tears escaped my eyes but my face was still emotionless and it was quiet again.
I could hear the tears falling in the water and then a deep sigh from Sabrina.

"y/n, you need help. I think.... I think you're struggling with depression," She looks at me as if I'm a deer she just hit with her car.

"Depression..." I repeated quietly to myself. The thought had weirdly enough never come to mind until she mentioned it.

"Lucifer, Kali, Shadow. You are not a disappointment. You are the most powerful and strongest woman to have ever lived and if you can fight the Dark Lord, God himself and even the entire universe you sure as hell can fight depression," She says motivated and kisses me on the lips.

The empty feeling inside feels a little bit filled when she kisses me. Her warm, lively lips against my cold, dead skin. It feels safe and good and alive. Once she breaks the kiss the feeling hollows again.

"Sabrina, I don't feel like fighting it, that's the problem. I don't feel like doing anything anymore," I lean forward and bury my head into her chest. The water is cooling down fast because of my body temperature and her warmth feels nice. Normally I hate the warmth but hers feels nice.
Her hand moves to my back and holds me closer.

"Why don't you talk to someone?"

"I'm talking to you now aren't I?"

"That's not what I meant. I mean talking to a psychologist. That might help,"

"Sabrina don't do this. I have been to psychologists before and they sent me to psychiatrists and they sent me to the loony bin. I am not going to feel better by talking to a fucking shrink. I feel better by talking to you,"

"I can't help you baby," She sounds almost guilty.

It makes sense. If I would tell her all of this everyday I would just drag her down with me.

"I know. But I don't want to talk to someone like that. It will make it worse, trust me. I think I can do this on my own, don't worry," I say, still a little unsure but with newfound motivation. I won't hurt Sabrina.

"Even though I can't help you entirely, I'm still here for you. Don't shut yourself off from me okay? You need to keep talking to me. I want to know how you're doing. You are not in this alone,"

"Thank you Brina," I say and sit up straight to look her in the eyes again. This time all on my own.

Her expression changes from a sad one to a mischievous one.

"What is it?" I ask.
She shuffles closer, causing the water to form little waves.

"You know, we're all alone in the bathtub,"

"Yes, it would be kinda weird if there was anyone else here with us,"

"What I'm trying to say is. Why not have a little fun? It would probably help you," She smirks. Her face is now so close that I can feel her hot breath against my skin.

"Sabrina the water's gone cold. We should get out," I say. I'm not used to her being like this, it's making me nervous.

"Oh you're not going anywhere," She closes the small gap that was between us and kisses me. Without parting she straddles me and my hands go over her back to her hair.
It's a passionate kiss, all the emotions of depression and lust and love are there.
After what feels like hours, she pulls away and puts both of her hands on my breasts, playing around with them.

"Now I want you to sit back and relax my demon. I'll make sure you enjoy yourself," She says as she starts riding me.
The water starts to form waves again and it tickles against my skin, making me even more sensitive.

She leans forward to kiss me again, and pushes her tongue inside. Already succumbed to the pleasure, I let her.

Now I'm caught of guard she starts riding me faster, causing me to feel a knot inside my stomach.

Water is now splashing over at both sides of the tub. She starts to go down, kissing me in my neck, sometimes sucking and then biting down hard.
I can't contain my moans anymore. This motivates her even more and she goes even faster.

I'm almost cumming and she notices.
She starts sucking my breasts and I throw my head back in ecstasy. My moans are getting loader and I hear them escape her mouth as well.
She's close too, I can feel it.
After a few seconds of being like this I feel my legs starting to shake and my moans get even louder.
I dig my nails in her back and just enjoy us both cumming.

She lets herself fall on top of me as she catches her breath.
She brings her mouth to my ear and whispers.
"I told you, you needed this,"
She smiles.
"Okay, you might have been right," I chuckle.

We get out of the tub and dry ourselves off before putting our clothes on.
That's when I notice there's no water left in the tub.

Why were we in there in the first place?