silent

21

I woke in a daze and stumbled to the bathroom.
"Damn, what a night" after brushing my teeth I headed down stairs to meet the others
"Well hello y/n, we where worried, we didnt know if you never came home last night." Mayrin greeted
"Yea I was out with lou and got home alittle late." I took a piece of toast and a cup of tea then headed up to the roof for fresh air.
'Wonder what crazy shit I'll do today.'
I thought to myself as I sipped my tea.
The sun was rising and I could feel the warmth on my forhead as it slowly ran down my body.
"It is nice out here isnt it?"
"As always you followed me out here sebastian." I stated bleakley.
"Do I sound that much like him?" I turned to see ciel.
"Oh, ha, sorry I'm so used to him following me up here." I scooted over even though there was no point, we had the whole roof after all. 
"Take a seat" to my surprise he actually sat down with me.
"You seem like your in a good mood, but then again you did just get a reward from the queen." He narrowed and shifted his eyes towards me.
"Where you going threw my files again?" I simply smiled and nodded, I put on a big grin to.
"Well I suppose it's not any worse than what you usually do" he had just gotten permission to travel over seas to Japan, meaning him and sebastian will be gone for months. 3, to be exact.
"So you know I'll probably be dead buy the time yall come back." I added a dull laugh.
"Sebastian has informed me of your situation and I accept the fact you do not want to come with us, you probably need some time to decide how you really feel about the situation." I was grateful he said that, but more proud because for the first time, I felt like I was actually discussing something with an adult.
"...Thank you" even though, in the end, I know that the reapers will come for me again.
"But I do ask you to reconsider, not for me or the others but for your own safety." I took a silent glance towards him to see if he was letting his own feeling get the best of him.
His eyes, or eye, was dull as usual there was nothing there, at least, not that I could see.
"..I'll be fine I have the others after all, I'll make sure not to go out without at least one of the others." He held a reluctant look but nun the less, left it alone.
"As you wish, sebastian informed me that you are not speaking to him, and because of that I have been inconvenienced of bearing a message."
"Oh?" I found that funny how he was the messenger this time.
"In his words exactly, "if you are in any real danger go to my room and open the 2nd drawer." Of course that's all he has to say.
"And"
"And?"
"Go to your room."
"....bitch what" did he just tell me to go to my room like a child."
"What did you just call me?!" He stood up in anger
"Tell him that." He relaxed
"Oh, alright." He makes his way back inside, only to stop without turning.
"Y/n, be careful." Then he simply continued on his way.

"We will be departing soon, I hope you will at least come see us off." Sebastian asked threw my door.
I wasnt sure what to say, everytime I think of sebastian all I can see it him holding a gun to my head and pulling the trigger. I haven't gone to see the undertaker sense the last incident.
"..well, then, It has been a great pleasure to work beside you in the phamtomhive manor, I will, miss you." '
'Shit, he didn't just fucking say that, not I have to go with them.'
I packed my stuff in a hurry and rushed downstairs I couldn't find them.
'Shit, shit, shit." I ran out the doors to find them riding down the driveway,
I
Took
OFF.
"Wwwaaaaiitt!" They weren't going as fast so I was able to catch up and grab the door and open it.
Ceil was the first to see me as he was sitting behind the driver.
"Y/n!, what are you doing?"
"Oh you know, (breathing heavly), just going for a jog." He taped on the roof and the driver slowed down.
"Thank you."
"Well, changed our mind did we?" Sebastian smirked
"Just take my shit." I shoved my luggage into his chest and took a seat next to ceil.
"On edge?" Ceil asked in his usually town as he watched the trees pass by.
"Nah, I love going on 9 hour trips." I stated in a clam and motionless voice.
" hm well then why did you decide to come along?" Sebastian smirked knowing I wasnt in the mood for his smart ass mouth right now.
"Didnt wanna die." I turned my attention towards the window and kept silent for the rest of the trip.

(Sebastian prov)

She was on edge, more than usual. I wonder what could be troubling her? Other than the situation currently at hand.

She kept quiet for the whole trip until..
"I'm hungry" both me and the young lord gave her a questioning look, she was quiet for so long, and that's the first thing she chooses to say?

"You'll have to wait till we get to the manor." The young lord stated plainly
"...hm" she turned back toward the window.
I knew she was hungry because I can hear her stomach growling...