Nat being Nat

Useless

I'm useless. Sometimes.

I'm useless when someone needs comforting.

I'm useless when someone needs advice.

I'm useless when someone is having a panic attack.

I'm useless when someone is thinking about committing suicide.

I'm useless when someone is picking on people who are weaker than them.

I'm useless when someone needs to be stood up for.

I'm not completely useless though. People just take advantage of my talents. They ask me to join their groups because they are my 'friends'. So I always end up doing all the art and music stuff.

I used to be mad at them, but not anymore. I let them boss me around. I don't care. At least then I know that someone acknowledges my talents.

I know, I shouldn't give up my dignity. But I'm used to it and I'm quite fine with the way things are.

Yes, I don't think that it's right to do that. I hate myself for doing that. I hate myself for accepting these things. I hate myself for not standing up for myself.

I hate myself for being useless.