Andy's Pov:
Me- love you, I'm sorry x
That was the last text I planned on sending rye for a while. I knew he wouldn't see it until I'd gone because I checked that he didn't have his phone on him, I didn't want him to follow me. I didn't want him or anyone to find me.
Believe me I didn't want to leave him. I didn't want to be alone. But even when I was surrounded by my bestfriends, I felt so alone.
The feeling that was lurking over me constantly was indescribable. I know Rye was looking out for me. I know he cared about me, but he has to deal with loosing Hayley too, I took away his opportunity to grieve. I also knew that brook cared for me but he had to try and get over the fact that the bond we had with Harv is potentially broken beyond repair, I knew that hit brook a lot, they were so close, and yes jack was helping to lift the tension and I know I could go to brook as much as I wanted. But it still didn't help me escape the feeling of emptiness.
I didn't actually know where I was going... I had a bag with some clothes in.. and when I say clothes I mean... jeans, joggers and no tops, I just took about 7 of ryes hoodies so I couldn't forget him.
They're my band. I know I can't go forever, and I know rye will cover for me when the roadies ask what's going on and where I am. That's why I love him. Even in times of panic, when I'm in the wrong, he'll defend my name. Always.
I had been walking for about 25 minuets, I didn't go far, at the minuet I was walking round the woods down the road from the house. Simply because myself and rye had spent a lot of time here, and I wanted to reminisce before I potentially destroyed our bond forever.
I don't know why I did this too myself, too all of us, I could have stayed, I could have spoke to Rye, to Brook, to any of them but I just didn't. It's time to face my Demons alone.
Which is something I don't think I can do, but I'm going to have to try.
I've got no idea how strong my thoughts can be. I know they haunt me every single day, and the only thing that makes them go away is rye. And he wasn't here anymore.
They could be stronger than I think. But whatever the result is at the end of this... its what I deserve.
Rye's Pov:
I didn't even hesitate to go out looking for Andy. Brook asked to come with me but he was in such a state of panic that it wasn't going to do him any good at all so I told him to stay at home incase he came home. I knew he wouldn't come home.
Fuck. How did I let this happen. I don't even know where he would go. He has no safe space anymore. His safe space was at home. And he chose to leave it.
I'd been looking for him for a good 15 minuets around the perimeter of our house, and at this point I'd rang him 37 times. No answer too any, just his soothing voice as the call reached answerphone and I heard his voice message each time, each time expecting a different result.
I can't loose him too. I know I'll find him. Because I won't stop until I do, but the question is, how long will it take me?
I don't even know where too start. We lived in such a secluded area that he could have gone in any direction.
I head into the woods by the side of our house to see if he'd gone to calm down in there, we'd been down there quite a few times when we needed space. We all had our areas that we found the most relaxing.
Mine and Andys was the same.
Because there wasn't many places to go while in this area I decided that it's probably a good idea to ring Andy, just once more, because if I hear anything, I'll have some kind of implication of where he is.
I call him. And I hear his ringtone. He's here somewhere. But he cuts the call short as he declines it.
Soon enough I get a text... not a text I wanted to receive..
Fovvs- rye please, stop. You can do this without me. Look after brook otherwise he'll go insane, love you x
No. I refuse to accept this. I always have and always will respect his decisions but not this time. I won't leave him alone.
I ring him again while pacing in and out of the trees. I hear his ringtone again. Only this time it's beyond close.
I run towards the sound.. only to find Andys phone in front of me. Lying on the floor. And there was not a sign of Andy at all.
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Yooooo please don't kill me for this, I'm sorry
