Everything I Thought I Needed

Chapter 4

After I left Shane's house, Sam has been going crazy and constantly asked me how good he was in bed. It bothered my wolf a lot that she was so curious to know everything about my mate but I didn't show it.

   It wasn't until we were in her apartment that she shared something with me that nearly made me choke on the popcorn I was eating.

    "Your mom called for you."

   I stopped eating and looked up at her. Is she serious? Mom never calls me even if we may have a death in the family. She hasn't talked to me ever since that day.

   "What did she want?" I asked as if my voice didn't crack and that the situation didn't bother me. Sam caught on to it though because almost instantly her hand was rubbing my back reassuringly.

   "She just said that you need to call her."

   Without a word, I got up from the movie we were watching and I went outside on the balcony overlooking the woods and called.

    The first ring and she picked up.

    "Danielle you called." She said with a flat voice.

    "Of course I called, Sam said you wanted to talk to me."

    I tried to focus on the suddenly cold wind brushing noisily through the trees. 

     "I just wanted to let you know that I have met more monsters like you," she paused, "and they didn't leave my presence alive."

   I felt all the color drain from my face as she finished that sentence.

    "Are you threatening your daughter?" I asked.

   Although I didn't have a rank in a pack, the power that came from being rogue did not go missed from my voice.

   "I'm not threatening; just reminding." And with that, she hung up.

I put my phone in my back pocket and went back inside to finish watching Friends With Benefits.

     By the time it was over, Sam had forgotten that world and she fell asleep. I didn't know what to do with myself for a long time as I watched her sleep. I don't sleep anymore ever since that day. I don't know why its just I feel weak when I sleep and I don't want to feel powerless if someone or something attacks me in my sleep.

     Her phone began to ring and I seen a familiar picture that showed up as the caller ID. I quickly answered for her.

   "Hey Blake."

    "Danny?" Blake asked in confusion. I heard shuffling around and almost hesitated to answer him.

   "Yeah, sorry Sam is asleep." I said quietly.

     "Oh, well how have you been?"

Blake was a guy that was interested in me when I first moved here. To be honest, I might've considered him attractive if I wasn't so focused on not being found out by anyone who and what I really was. But when he met Sam it was impossible to get him to look my way again so I just left it at that.

  "I've been better, but I'll have Sam call you when she wakes up." I hung up after that.

  There was something odd about my mom calling me and saying that. Has she found out where I am? Do I need to leave again? Thoughts kept bugging me until I finally got up and ate something. Food always made me feel better. I walked into the kitchen and made some waffles and began to eat and that was when I made my decision.

  I need to leave. I don't want to put Sam and Shane at risk because they were the only people I could let myself care about and I'm not abou to stay here and risk their safety. I know Shane can take up for himself because he can shift but mom went insane after the incident and ever since, she's been bitter to werewolves and anything that was considered super natural.

   I finshed eating and headed into my room and laid down on my bed.

  *Flashback*

     Mom screamed bloody murder when she seen dads body torn to peices and the gray wolf laying beside it. She fell to the ground and sobbed for hours. I shifted back into my human form and tried to comfort her but the second I touched her she looked up at me and slapped me. I jumped back in shock. I never thought she was going to react like this and actually mourn the man that ruined her life.

"What did you do to my husband?" She asked me. She couldnt even look at me. My wolf physically hurt to see her hurting like this. I really am a monster.

"He hurt you! He abused me! He was going to end up killing you and me, do you not care?" I said trying to choke back the tears threatening to come down my face and tear through my body.

  "Well, I cared until you killed him. You're nothing but a monster to me now. You deserve to die!" She spat at me coldly.

   I couldn't take it anymore and neither could my wolf. I shifted into her letting her take control of my body so I didn't have to feel the emotional pain that was slowly turning into physical pain. It was strange how I could already feel me and my wolf's bond tieing together into one.

I turned around and left her near the edge of the woods crying over my fathers dead body. I ran till there was no more woods. I ran until I was out of the state. I was out of the region before I knew it. I had to fake signatures so many times and made excuses when my parents were needed for my enrollment in school. I avoided people at all costs. I didn't want them to see the monster that I really was. The connection between me and my wolf was amazing but I hated her with a passion. I found out everything I needed to know about wolves and their pack life and their mates. I hope I don't have one because I know that I will only be rejected. I hope I get rejected because no one deserves to be mated with someone like me.

Something snapped in me when my mother called me a monster. I believed her with all my heart.

*End of flashback*

I woke up in a cold sweat. I needed my mate so bad right now to comfort me. But I didn't want him or anyone to see this side of me because I hate being weak. He'd hate me when he finds out about what I have done to my own father. The thought of my father suddenly made me sick to my stomach.

I ran to the bathroom and barely made it to the toilet before I started spewing vomit out of my mouth. My body was weak and so was my Wolf from the heart wrenching memories of what I done.