this was his worst attack yet. the entire time it was happening, the only thing running through his mind was
whywhywhywhywhy
he had been doing everything right! he had taken those little pills, used his inhalers, done his breathing treatments. he had done everything right but somehow it still wasn't enough. it wasn't enough because he was gasping for air and he was alone and he couldn't reach his phone to call tyler or an ambulance.
he couldn't call out for help as his lips and fingers turned blue for the last time. as he inhaled weakly and stumbled to his feet in one last attempt to survive.
as his thoughts raced
his last memory was rather a bittersweet one
it was of tyler staring into his eyes, a sweet smile on his pink lips
"i will always love you, joshua."
"always?"
"always."
"pinky promise?"
"pinky promise."
