My Best friend

1-A date with him

---Milo---

I always preferred cycling than driving...when cool air hits your face and  you feel like flying. Yes I love that feeling... Not that I don't like cars .

My father has a car fetish that he bought a car for every occasion... Which he pretty much makes up.. He bought a car just because I passed my math test which I fail always... But I never like to use any of those...moreover it never felt like it's MINE...
I rode as fast as I could to meet my devil mommy ...after that shitty trip to the island for a month god I missed him so much ..I pretty much stay in his place more than in my dad's mansion...

He is always on some kind of trip and I feel lonely in there...it is filled with people ...like butlers, chefs, gardeners,yada yada yada...but even with all those people around me I felt alone...
But when am with Noah I never felt alone...he have friends like people who actually care about him but he always chose me over everything...

I am  just 17 , basically four years younger than him.but he never acted like an adult ...am the mature one here but he is the one who takes care of me...he is like my home...when I met him actually its in the school's washroom..he was bullied for being gay...even though I was just a kid I had this instinct to protect him...to stand with him...I never had friends or I cared about anything ..but I can't help but feel worried about him...he had this innocent face with giant blue eyes...

He looks almost like a puppy that you never want to hurt even in your dreams... I never say that I beat 'em all like a super hero..actually I was beaten up pretty bad that I had to be hospitalised ...but it's all worth in the end....words spread like fire...and I emerged as a bad boy that you don't want to mess around with.. So me and him started to hang out ...

we went to lunch, mall,theatres and what not..and it never felt weird to hang out with an older boy...we were opposites.. He was a nerd ..I was a zero at studies not that I can't study am just lazy.Am athletic.. He never liked sports..he likes boys ...well I don't liked any one... Sometimes I think am asexual or whatever...

He liked everything soft..I was like hard core...his smile light ups your whole day...well I never smile...
I am currently visiting multiple therapists and I always end up hating everyone. It never helped.. But his smile does...he gives the warmest of hugs... I wish I have this feelings for him...I love him..with all my  heart and soul but not in a sexual way...

He never had a proper relationship... Because he can be just awkward sometimes...he is never hot... But cutest cutiepie in the world ....I always pray that his date shouldn't go well...like how selfish am I...but I do because I don't want to loose him...I can't share his love with some jack, Jimmy ,Justin or whoever.. I can be pretty possessive... But he is my everything... He completes me...he makes me want to live one more day...he makes me feel alive ...I love Noah more than anything in the world...

---Noah--

Am happy for two reasons.. One Milo is back from his month long vacation from an island which I can't pronounce... He don't want to go because he would miss me ...basically he won't show any emotions ...he don't show his vulnerable side to anyone..

Not even me ,his best friend... He act tough..he want to protect.. Which he did through out my high school days even though he was a  little boy back then...he never liked any of my  dates in the past...he always find some faults with them...not that he doesn't want me to have a relationship.. He just doesn't want me to get hurt...

Which pretty much sums up that I have a date this evening which am happy about but terrified to tell milo about it..
Actually its my fourth date with him and a couple of sleep overs in between..I actually think we could be official by this evening.. I thought to tell milo about this on the first date itself .but I wanted to test the water with this guy...

on second and third dates I can't reach him since there is no signal on that whatever the name which I can't pronounce island...
Now he is back in town and I almost going to have a boyfriend I don't know how he will receive it... Will he fight with me..be angry ..or have a panic attack and cry ...I don't wish the later to happen because it will literally broke my heart and I can't see him hurt...especially because of me.

He has this issues which I cannot solve but i can just hold him and say it will be OK...
People who dated me actually ended things because of Milo... I talk about him...like all the time and they assume we are in love.which we clearly not...

He is my Best friend and if you want to date me you should tolerate the constant presence of Milo in my life ...and  I think Justin would do because he is the sweetest person ever... Like he is a law student works part time as a bartender... Loves cats and dogs equally..Italian...loves to sing...god he has that raspy voice yet so smooth...his brunette hair ...his coal black eyes...tanned skin...everything thing about him is just so perfect that am falling.....

"Hey babe what's up"

"Hey Milo! I missed you baby cakes....you were back... I thought you were lost in the jungle.since you never picked up my call "

"Sorry babe no time since I had guys and girls all over me seeking a-t-t-e-n-t-i-o-n"

"All of 'em wanted to see the rare species of chimpanzee ain't they"

"Do I look like one.....better check those nerdy glasses of yours"

"Hey milo...I wanted to say something to you...like really important... I actually wanted to tell you but you never picked up my calls"

"Babe you are scaring me .what happened.. Don't say that your bloody cat got lost again"

"No .I..I might have have a potential boyfriend tonight may be and am going on a date with him...please don't be mad"

"No no no ...like am not mad...when did this happen.. I mean how can he be your boyfriend even before going on  for a date"

"actually its our fourth date minus the sleepovers we had at our houses"

"What?? He came to your house"

"No technically I went there ..ok stop...am sorry that I didn't told you sooner but you know I love you right ..nothing is going to change between us..Justin will like you too...I mean eventually after you both meet...ok am freaking out .."

"Baby relax...some times I just forget you have a life without me ...I mean you're 21 and you need a partner. I ..I understand ..I mean you can't be stuck with me forever right..."

"Milo... I"

"It's okay babe really ....I am just ...I want to meet him make sure he is the guy for you..whether he is worthy of you ..."

"You both can meet tomorrow ..I kind of planned a dinner for both of you so that you can get to know each other but am just very nervous to break it down to you..I don't want to hurt you Milo...I love you ...you know that right"

He just hugged me... This is very rare thing for him to do...I hope I didn't hurt Milo... Cause he is already too broken from his past..I atleast want to keep his remnants of his heart intact....
So the date...Justin you better be worthy of my best friends approval...