My Best friend

6 -vulnerable foe

---Justin---

It's been two days since I talked to Noah ...he has been avoiding my calls...not purposely... He has a lot on his plate right now...I understand that he needs time...and I will wait for him...I want Noah...god it hurts not to see his face..why does he have a best friend?.. when Noah said about things Milo did for him I genuinely appreciated him in my heart...it's great to have a best friend like him ..but my heart can't accept my boyfriend to love someone more than me..its pure  jealousy I know..

I wish Milo to disappear....I know its lowest of lows to think like that even  for my standards...I think am going crazy.

My thoughts were interrupted as  I saw someone waiting for me outside the bar..

"Hey Justin can we talk..."
Its Milo...

"Ok...can we go to the park ..."
he just followed me there ..

we sat on a bench facing each other... His dark circles looked worser than ever ...and he looked tired and exhausted...he looked like a small kid who got lost in a carnival...why did he even wants to talk with me.

" Am sorry Justin "

"What??"

"Am so sorry... I know you just wanted to irritate me the other day ....you lied about the club thing....its not about the fact that you people went to the club...it's just that you chose to go to highstay....

I want to explain things to you...now that Noah loves you...we are just stuck together for life..we should see each other whether you like it or not.

We should know about each other right...
You told about yourself when I accused for cheating.. You were not even mad at me..you even offered me breakfast the other day.after your constant kind gestures  I came to know how much a good person you are...

Well you deserve to know why I freaked out about the whole club thing..My father and mother were high school sweet hearts...they had me at a very young age...my dad proposed my mom at that club...it was a special place for them....on their 12 th anniversary they wanted to go to the same club...I was just  10 years old...they made me sat on the car with my Butler and they went there just to have a drink...like a symbol of love.it was my mum's idea ..my dad protested since I was with them..but my mum insisted to go and promised they can get back within ten minutes....but they had a mini argument, so my dad left mom at the club and came inside the car ...I started to ask for my mum..she was still inside that club.he was mad at her and took his mobile to call her and tell her to come outside..and suddenly we heard guns firing...inside the club..
12 lives were lost that day...and one of them was my mom...

If my father doesn't left her in the club..she would've been alive....I saw her body covered in blood.....I spiralled into depression and my dad ...he just  blamed her death on himself... He was never home..
He can't even look at me...since I looked very much like my mum...I had panic attacks and severe anxiety...I visited multiple therapists....none helped with my pain...I had nightmares...
It was so lonely ....I wished it was me instead of my mom....I loved her so much..

People stared to bully me because I was rich...they said I have everything but I want to scream at their face to get lost.... I become the rebel who you don't want to mess with...I am not  strong...I just pretended to be one..

That's when I met Noah...he was an high schooler....but he was bullied for being gay...I had this instinct to protect him... And I did..with all the might I had...he was the only person who cared about me...
He become that hope...he gave purpose to my life...
We've been each other's anchor... He helped me with my panic attacks.

I stayed at his place most of the time..I slept in his couch and my night mares started to disappear.. Am a very difficult person to be with but he understands me just like my mom did...
He can be physically weak...but he is the strongest person I know...

He never lost his smile...even though he suffered a lot in his life...

And Justin when you came into our lives....I thought you were going to take him away from me...

To be very honest am jealous....of you two..

I thought I will be left out and am scared..

I never told Noah about my fear...eventually he will get married have his own family and stuff...but my heart doesn't accept that...am not ready to ...

But my best friend is ready to sacrifice his love for me...just to take care of me...
I feel like am misusing our relationship....
He can't lose the person he loves the most ...'cause I know that pain...and when you told me you left him in the club...I relived those memories of my mother getting shot...I thought some thing terrible happened to Noah that's why I kinda made a scene that day ...am sorry for that..

Justin, noah really loves you ....more than you could think...and I know you love him too...so I will try to stay away from your lives....

I won't disturb you hereafter...I know its not my place to tell... But go ...talk to him...he is just pretending that he is okay without you, which he clearly not ..I won't be a problem anymore... I would be more than happy for both of  you to be together....am sorry for everything Justin ..am so sorry ..I hope you would forgive me "

And he left me there alone on the park making me ashamed of myself for wishing him to disappear from my life.....

It finally dawned on me why Noah loves Milo...

Milo is just a selfless angel with broken wings....