Passionate Trust - Fractured

Chapter 13 - Catherine

I dreamed that I was in an apartment, it was his apartment. He looked desperate. It took me a few minutes to realize that we were arguing.

"You're letting me start feeling something for you Ryan. That's dangerous for me, Ryan! "I shouted at him, nervously pacing around the apartment. His lips twisted into a deceitful smile:

"You let me get hurt by just using me. In truth, I am nothing else in your eyes than your sex toy that you will soon get rid of when the next best guy comes and offers you to sleep with him. Or am I wrong? "

"Ryan, how can you say that? I do not use you. I would never look at you as if you were just a sex toy ... ", or maybe? Did I use Ryan? Would I be able to abandon him that way, when he knows just about everything about me?

The way he talks to me right now, makes me feel like I'm a cheap whore. It makes me angry that he said i was a cheap slut in his eyes right now.

After all, I have told him about my past, opened myself to him. I trusted him and now he says something like that. I sobbed. How could he?

My tears ran down my face, he took a step towards me and reached out his hand to reach for me but I backed away. He looked at me in horror as I fell to my knees and began to cry and scream.

"Catherine, I'm ... I'm sorry."

"S ... shut up. BE QUIET!! "I covered my ears and started yelling. Ryan looked at me and sat next to me, his arms around my waist and he pulled me tight. A hand slides up my cheek and wipes my tears with my thumb. When I looked up at him, his eyes were sad and dark. His eyes were intense and fixed me.

I could not fight this man, the urge to have him, to be close to him, to feel his lips on mine. I just can not fight him and he does not fight me.

"Sorry, I was insensitive and selfish. Will you forgive me?" He asked, pulling me closer to his chest. I nodded weakly. After all, he had only said the truth and the truth is known to hurt. Unsure about my feelings and about what he feels for me, I asked him a question that I was sure he would answer with yes.

"Do you love me?"

His eyes widened and he cleared his throat.

"I never stopped Cath."

His kiss was heartfelt and passionate like never before.

The ice crystals in his eyes melt away as his tongue met mine. In one moment he was so cold and unreachable. But the next, he was hot and irresistible like no one else. When he broke away from me, we met for a few minutes in the eye before we both laughed out loud. This scene could be from a damned fucked up movie like "50 Shades of Gray". His fingers brushed my cheek gently and I gave in to his touch. His touch was cautious, tender and restrained. But his kiss was passionate, demanding and pleading. I put my arms around his shoulders and kissed him hungrier.

He belongs to me as I belong to him. Ryan is a part of me, the first person to understand me. The first person I can not lose. As we left panting from each other, I looked deeply  his beautiful eyes.

"You belong to Me. I will not let anyone take you away from me. Even if you left me from your own free will, I would never allow it. No way."

A small smile spread across his face.

"Dito! We should go to bed now, don't you think? "He pulled me up and led me into the bedroom.

"But we just got up," I said. He laughed and laid me on the bed. "We will not sleep." "He kissed my neck and marked me with a hickey. His hand moved slowly along my belly button to my waist.