Passionate Trust - Fractured

Chapter 17 - Catherine

James and Ryan both stared at me open-mouthed. After 5 minutes, I heard laughter coming out of  James mouth. "Haha, forgive me, little sister, I wish for both of you that this relationship develops into something serious, but with your background and the number of lovers you had, it's hard to believe that you're getting one real relationship. Especially if you have no idea about other people's feelings because you only care about your own. Because you're an egoist. "
I formed my eyes into Angry slits and looked straight into his eyes. "All im going to respond to this is: Tiffany. " I grinned at him with a devious smile. He clenched his hands into fists and his face went pale. "You dare to compare my and tiffany's relationship to something like this ?!" Ryan ran a hand through his hair and looked at James." "My name's Ryan, by the way. Sorry to interfere, but who is Tiffany? "My eyes were still on James when I wanted to answer, but he interrupted me. "" Don't  you dare, Catherine. "" But his threat wouldn't stop me.
He started it , James knows what I'm capable of and yet he challenged me. "What's going on, James? Why am I not allowed to finish something that you started with? " James face turned more pale  and he started shaking with anger. So why stop?  "James, had many one-night stalls, every night a different one. Most of his lovers were the same as him, sex and gone. But then there was this one special girl named Tiffany who, of course, immediately fell in love with him. But when she revealed her true feelings, he told her he just wanted her body. No feelings, nothing whatsoever that had something to do with attachment. The next day, reading the newspaper, he had learned that she had killed herself. As if that wasn't bad enough, a week before he cut ties with her, he had a threesome with Tiffany and her sister, with whom he later cheated on her. "
James stormed out of the room and I heard something break. As I slowly came down the stairs, I saw James in the kitchen, bowls and anything else that could break was slammed against the wall. A glass, a porcelain bowl and a vase shattered into small pieces. I went too far. Slowly I moved towards him, he barely noticed me, I became aware that i wasnt able to mentally reach him. He was mentally unstable like back then when he saw what happend to mom. 

Each of us had his own dark side, with which he had to deal with. I put my hand on his shoulder. James turned and looked at me with a lifeless look in his eyes "What is it? Want to sprinkle more salt in the wounds? Get out! "He shouted.
"Sorry, you're Right i better leave you alone." When I turned to leave, I heard him mumble. "Why are you even here? You only cause trouble! Hurt anyone you can hurt just to be make yourself feel better. You target your own family by not calling us for years, but as Washington getstoo dangerous for you to stay, you seek refuge in your family. You have left us behind! As if that wasn't bad enough, you're coming in with some guy and claiming he's your friend! You have only caused problems your whole life! But you demand your life should be perfect. Do you know what you are Catherine? A damn selfish little bitch that doesn't value anyone else but only yourself! You always want to be in the center of attention! "" His voice raised and he yelled at me.
Tears streamed down my face, I sobbed and put my hand over my mouth. At that moment, my uncle came in. "What's the hell going on here ?! Who the fuck is yelling in here like this?! " I didn't cry because I was desperate, or sad. I cried because James was right. With all he said.
Antonio looked over at me and his expression softened. "Catherine, what's up? Did something happen between you two? "" He looked at James first and then at me. Out. I have to get away from here. When I was a kid and my parents were arguing, I always hid myself in the attic. It was the only hiding spot where no one had ever found me. As fast as I could, I ran past James and Antonio to the stairs. When I was in the attic, I locked the door behind me by sliding a chair under the door latch. I took three deep breaths to calm down. When will all this be over? Or has it only begun? I was cold and I felt lonely, misunderstood, humiliated.
After 15 minutes, I removed the chair and slunk into the bedroom, hoping not to get into another confrontation. Ryan was asleep in bed and I decided instead to lie to him, to go to the living room and watch a family movie. I wrapped a blanket around me and stared at the TV. I heard the stairs creak as I looked over it, hoping it was Ryan, but instead it was James. "Please go away." I buried my face in my arms and pulled the blanket over my head." "You want to know why I'm here and not in Washington? I'll tell you why. Skye showed up and tried to drive me over with a car and as a highlight I got a call 2 weeks later from my colleague that Jordan Trinity is in my company and wants to talk to me. I didn't know what to do, that's why I'm here. But apparently I am hated by everyone and therefore unwanted. Yes, I did do shitty things as a teenager, but who didn't?! Do you think I came here voluntarily? I don't want to make it look like  I use this family, but first I had to get my own life in order to build a bond with my family. I repress my pain. But since the day I met Ryan, I feel like he mentally and physically stimulates me. He was the first person I could open up to About my past , knowing that he would understand me. "James smiled at me. ""So that's what it is. Catherine, I'm sorry, I didn't know what happend to you. I wouldn't ever want to kill you or see you dead. If I had known that, then ... "" I interrupted him. " No, you wouldn't have. That's fine. Sorry." He hugged me and i hugged him back tightly. " Ditto. You should go to sleep, kitten. " I smiled. "" You didn't call me this nickname in a long time." He winked at me and went to his room. Half an hour later, I fell asleep in front of the TV.