my climax brain into one mess drives me insane.

6-20-2019

i'm 9 weeks clean, good start?

let's face it i'm not getting better, but i'm not getting worse. i've been going to therapy but it's like i don't know? they are helping? i think. i just i'm really bad at talking to people, and when i try to tell people my problems i guess i just end it with something stupid. 

sometimes it's like my anxiety is trying to get me, and i can't run from the problems.

i'm tired, i've had a horrible sleep schedule after school, it's summer for me. i think it's been 4 weeks? legit i can't remember i thought it was Monday today.. nope i'm totally wrong. everything is just dull now. 

i've been doing digital art now. but i reset my chrome so i'm trying to remember what my email and password is. i usually write everything down, kinda but i didn't. which sucks cause i dont want people thinking im stealing my own art.

i even have all my sketches and finished pieces in my files. im kinda ocd about my files, but i wouldn't say i have it. i was never diagnosed with it. i just forgot the other term for it. 
it's 1:46 am right now, i should go and keep logging into other sites.