RoadTrip // Oneshots

What If Im Not Good Enough?

Sonny P.O.V.

I have been with the boys for about a month now. Ive know about the trial for a while but it was all touch and go on of mikey was going or not, so I had time to prepare myself for anything although I didn't think tour would be this early on the table.

We all piled into the tour bus and the energy was high, everyone buzzing for tour to start. As exited as I am to perform again, I am petrified. I mean, I'm still only trialing, I could mess everything up for the boys, the show, I could bring them all down, what if the roadies hate me and I then ruin the boys careers. I was staring to sweat and my vision was starting to blur. Next thing I knew we was at the hotel. I opened my eyes to see that I was laying on brook. "Wha?.." I started but brook cut me off. "You passed out within the first 20 mins of the car ride, but we are here now so go eat, drink and shower mate." I gave him a confused look but he just smiled. I got out the van and grabbed my things and headed up to my room which I was sharing with Andy. "You all good mate? What happened on the bus?" Andy asked as we got to our room. "I dont know mate, it was weird like my eyes went blurry, I went all dizzy, my ears where ringing then it went black and i woke up laying on brooklyn?" I explained as i sat on my bed. "Sounds like a panic attack. What's going on mate, let me help?" Andy said calmly sitting next to me. Then I remember what happened, all the voices in my head. My eyes filled with water and then I just broke. Andy wrapped his arms around me stroking my hair whispering calming things in my ear. Once i finally started to calm down Andy sat on the floor infornt off me, "talk to me mate, what's going on?" He asked calmly. "W..what if I.. I'm not good enough fo..fovvs. I..i. dont want to l..let you all d...down and me..mess up" I managed to say through my tears. Andy let out a sigh and took my hands. "Right mr, look at me. You are an amazing singer, you have performed on a stage before, me and the boys already love you so much! You are so funny and fut in so well already" andy smiled. "W..what about the ro..roadies?" I questioned. "Well it will get some taking use to but they will learn to love you, you're amazing! And if they don't they aren't true roadies" Andy came to sit next to again putting his hand on my shoulder. "I don't know Fovvs, I dont know if I can do it what if I'm not good enough" I sigh. "You are good enough, me and the boys think so, blair thinks so and the roadie will too! Sonny stop putting yourself down you are good enough dont ever think you're not" Andy said standing throwing his arms around making me laugh slightly. "Thanks fovvs" I say still laughing. "No problem mate" he smiles.

I done the show and loved every minute of it! Andy kept checking up on me and sending me smiles. All the roadies are amazing!! I dont know what I was so worried about...

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The second part the Anxiety//Randy will be posted soon!!