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We were in the car ride back, lannan cracked up the radio. "That was fun" He said trying to make conversation. I nodded well smiling "yeah" The my Can't help falling in love came on "I love this song" Lannan raised his eyebrow "really" I chuckled "yep" He then turned up the volume as I sang along with Elvis "Oh shall I stay, would it be a sin" Lannan looked at me and smiled then kept driving, I continued
"Oh for I can't help falling in love, with you" I couldn't stop thinking of lannan and I.
He then sung "like a river flows" I sung "shurley to the sea"
"Darling so it goes"
"Somethings are meant to be"
We then sung together "take my hand"
I sung by myself "take my whole life too"
Then together. "Oh for I can't help, falling in love with you"
Lannan and I had strong eye contact. He then turned his attention back to the road, I looked down in my lap. I chuckled "y'know... I think it's so funny, how people fall in love"
He looked at me an raised an eyebrow. "I'm serious, I'll look at other people's relationship, and think, that's amazing I wish I had that"
Lannan chuckled "me too, believe me."
We arrived at the click house. I told everyone my goodbyes and went home. I thought to my self.
'I don't need lannan he doesn't even like me'.
So I set up a tinder. After a few hours I was messaging one guy he was perfect. So tomorrow we were getting coffee. I texted Kath.

Me: guess what!

Kath: what!

Me:I set up a date tomorrow with a guy named Jared he is like perfect for me!

Kath: that's awesome what about lannan!

Me: enough about him, I'm so happy!

We texted for a few minutes before it was late so I went to bed.

The next morning

I woke up to my alarm blaring, I slammed it and got up. I checked the time 10:30 I had to be there by 11:15.
I checked my wardrobe and ended up wearing this

I walked to the shop and there he was, he looked just like his picture

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I walked to the shop and there he was, he looked just like his picture.
We sat down and talked for hours. I then asked.
"Do you... Do you believe in love at first sight" I chuckled looking down. He reached his hand over. He lifted my head up and kissed me it felt like sparks. We then left the shop together, he took me to his car. I checked my phone it was already 3 I had time to spare.
We got in his car and kept making out. He put his hand on my thigh and slipped tounge. He moved his hand up and I broke the kiss.
"Woah, not yet" He then looked mad
"Why I thought that's what you wanted to do"
"No I wanted to get to know you"
"Well then leave"
"What" He then looked really pissed off.
"I said leave you whore"
I got out of the car and ran home. I stood on the sidewalk in front of my house.
I collapsed on the ground and broke into tears. I saw lannan run out of the click house he picked me up and hugged me, as I sobbed into his chest.
He took me into my house and sat me on the couch. I cried into his chest as he layed my head in his lap, he stroked my hair trying to calm down.
I felt used, unlovable. I couldn't even date one guy. I was so broken and torn.
"What's wrong with me" I asked lannan. "Nothing why would you say that" U sniffled "I can't be loved" He looked taken back. "Yes you can" I looked up at him. "Have you seen me, I'm a mess. No one wants broken pecies. They want shiny new one" He looked at me dead serious "I love you" I chuckled "no you don't, your just saying that cause your pitting me"
  He then leaned in. "If I was lying I wouldn't do this"
  He then kissed me.
My eyes widen like it wasn't real, I closed my eyes. It's like I was dreaming, walking on air. I slowly pulled away, now sitting up.
"I love you too, but I can't"
"What"

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