With You (Sahyo TWICE)

Chapter 7

Jihyo's POV:
(one week later)

Sana had gotten better and recovered last week. For our week off, we had all enjoyed our time together. No anxiety, no sickness, no problems at all. We had returned to our schedules yesterday. But when we performed at M Countdown, I felt my chest tighten and my stomach twist, tears threaten to come out of my eyes. This had never happened before, and I was scared. I told no one; telling someone would make it real, and I didn't want it to be real. I wanted to go to sleep that night and wake up to a different, happier reality, but nothing is ever that easy. All I could do was fight and hope no one would notice. I didn't want anyone worrying about me because we all had enough to worry about already.

That night, I cried myself to sleep while Sana snored next to me. I told myself I was scared that she would wake up and notice, even if there was a small part of me that hoped she would. And when I woke up the next morning and she kissed my cheek, smiled at me, and said "Morning, baby. Are you hungry?" I couldn't help but feel a little disappointed that she didn't see something was wrong, considering I hadn't slept well.

Well of course she saw nothing wrong, idiot. You didn't tell her.

I was too scared to. I wanted her to find out because telling is always the hardest part. Nevertheless, I pried myself out of bed and walked to the kitchen, hoping that maybe someone else would see something off. Maybe they would approach me and then I wouldn't have to tell.

But nothing is ever that easy.

Nayeon nodded at me, Jeongyeon said good morning, Tzuyu pointed to an empty seat at the table for me to sit at, and no one else did anything. Sana sat next to me and asked if she could feed me. The only reason I agreed is because I was too busy wringing my hands under the table.

She noticed and frowned.

"Don't do that. I don't want you to hurt your hands or anything, please."

She grabbed one of my hands with her free one and fed me some more.

I sighed as I put my head on her shoulder and closed my eyes. I hadn't slept much last night, and I was significantly more exhausted than I had been only three hours before. She frowned again and wrapped her arms around me.

"Did you sleep okay?"

I shook my head and buried my face in her neck. I really needed a nap.

"Why?"

I shrugged.

"Bad dream, tossing and turning, thinking too much? Please, you can tell me."

I shook my head again. Not yet.

She seemed to understand and nuzzled the top of my head with her cheek.

"Anytime you want to talk, okay?"

No, I need you to talk to me. How am I supposed to talk to you?

I nodded and this time she let me sleep.

Sana's POV:

Jihyo had fallen asleep, and I felt really bad about having to eventually wake her up. She'd been alseep for about an hour now. Fortunately, it was 9 am and we didn't have our scheduled performance until 2. Unfortunately, I really needed to pee and she was leaning against me. I gently nudged her.