I'm back to hating my body, and I'm starting a whole new diet I'm not even sure is healthy for me. But I have no one to talk to about how I feel. Sure I have friends, but I don't talk to them about this kind of stuff. So here I am- alone, hating what I look like on the outside.. wishing I could just be skinny. And that's what I'm aiming for starting tomorrow (June 25th) I just want to be skinny. Skinny is magic. And I'm not happy in my body, even though some girls wish to have it, I hate it and I really just want to be skinny.. really skinny.
I wish I loved me when I looked in the mirror, sometimes I do, but in reality the fat with always be there, and I hate that. I'm hoping the diet works.. I just hope it doesn't kill me in the process. But beauty is pain.
