the "tutor"

arguing

it's been a 2 weeks and it's been ok. alex and i. well we've had our ups and downs. alex met jackie... rn we're @ his casa just hanging. alex was live and i was on my phone on his bed.
~live
alex- u guys she's been on her phone ALL DAY!
me- stop lying.
alex- i'm not!
me- stfu i just got on it before u started the live and ur not my mom. so u don't have to tell me when to leave my phone.
alex- whatever 😒
/comment/- couple fighting tings 🙄
/comment/- don't argue plz 🥺
/comment/- it's a natural thing 😞 it'll be fine hopefully...
/comment/- oh god—
alex- wht. ur mad now?
me- no.
alex- stop it i think we all now u r.
me- alex literally stop.
alex- what? stop fighting?
me- yea i don't wanna argue
alex- well then why'd u start it?
me- me!? i started this? i started—
alex- yea u did
me- 🙄 i didn't start shit
alex- i hate this.
me- me too. u know. all we do is argue.
/comment/- no stop ur gonna make me cry.
/comment/- i can't—
/comment/- plz don't fight...
alex- yea and u know what i—
me- all i said was stop lying.
alex- and that i'm not ur mom to tell u what to do.
me- yea and that's it. it's honestly not a big deal
alex- well it—
me- i'm leaving bye.
alex- fine bye me.
me- r— whatever.
/comment/- u made her mad.
/comment/- stop!
/comment/- bye :/
/comment/- i hate when y'all fight
/comment/- oOf
alex- guys imma get off bye i luv y'all.
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alex- bri literally stop being over dramatic
me- me being over d— u know what it's fine idc i'm still leaving bye
alex- fine! leave! like i care. u know i'm sure jackie would never do this.
me- well i'm sry i'm not perfect like her.
alex- Bri u—
me- i honestly thought we would— never mind bye 🙄:/

i went out closed the door and left.
me- bye mrs guzman
gala- ya te vas?
me- si tengo— i have to do something
gala- ok mija bye
me- bye. bye henry. BYE HARRY.
harry- BYE

i went out and walked home. i didn't actually wanna go home so i went to a park. i went to sit on a bench and got a blade. and i didn't want to but i had to i— i couldn't deal with the stupid arguing.... so then as i was going for it someone ran to me and dropped it off my hand
me- wt—
joey- bri. wtf!?
me- 😞 i—
joey- why? why'd u do it?
me- it's some stupid reason.
joey- it's a problem bc ur doing this. it's not stupid. ur—
me- it's alex ok.
joey- tell me.
me- joey all i care abt is g—
joey- no seriously tell me.
me- well alex came back like 2 weeks ago and i was happy and excited for him to come back. and i'm still happy. but we argue all the time and i don't like it.
joey- did u try talking to him?
me- yea. last time we had one of the worst arguments we had i tried talking to him but he got mad @ me. rn we're cool but i don't like it when we argue. and ik this isn't the best way to solve things. i used to do it.
joey- yea it's not ok. so plz don't do it bc i would loose someone rlly gorgeous in my life
me- joey stop.
joey- i'm not kidding. ur so—
me- no. literally stop. plz
joey- fine.
me- thank u.
joey- np. but hey one day u should—
me- bye
joey- bye 😂

i went to a nail place bc my nails needed to get done again.
i got em done like this

then i went home. we start school soon and i don't have shit. so i went home and called Diego to see if he could go school shopping with me. and he could. so i changed

after that i got in my car and drove. after i picked him up we went to target to get the school supplies then to the mall to buy some clothes. me and him were just in my room. he was on my bed and i was sitting on the floor near my window.
Diego- thx for letting me come along.
me- np :)
Diego- where's alex?
me- oh. him.
Diego- wdym?
me- we got in some stupid argument
Diego- wow. Bri rlly?
me- yea but it's fine
Diego- i'm sure it is. y'all guys aren't full on mad @ each other so i'm guessing it's not that bad. at least it's not like mine and Josie's. why is ur life so perfect?
me- it's not.
Diego- i mean u and alex argue but y'all stay friends unlike me and Josie. yea i don't think she'll wanna be my friend anymore. and u have this big ass house. and sometimes u have it to urself. and u have a whole bunch of guys hitting on u. i—
me- *gets up* u know wht i'm tired i just wanna tell someone other than hoey. i mean joey
Diego- Bri—
me- u know how i said i got in an argument with alex?
Diego- yea but—
me- yea well i almost cut my arm up again...
Diego- Bri rl—
me- yes rlly he saved me from making a mistake and all bc of that argument. u know sometimes i wanna die. bc i don't wanna loose one of the most important ppl in my life and—
Diego- Bri ur not—
me- well i'm sry for him. not everyone is perfect. after he met jackie he's talked abt her in almost every single one of our conversations. saying she did this. she has this. she would've done this. ok well not everyone can be like that. i honestly should've never introduced them to each other. i just wanna kill myself.
Diego- Briana don't say that.
me- i honestly hate this
Diego- come here
me- *sits on bed beside him* why can't i just—
Diego- don't say anything.
me- *lays down* fuck my life.
Diego- Bri. come on now. ik ur better than this and you'll get thru it bc ur strong. now just plz try to get some sleep or something. imma go bye ilu and don't do anything stupid
me- alright. bye thx i luv u 2 be safe :/

and after that he left.