Survival Training

Chapter 2

                                                                        Chapter 2

"And then I found out how hard it is to really change. Even hell can get comfy once you've settled in. I just wanted the lonely inside me to leave. No matter how fucked you get, there's always hell when you come back down. The funny thing is all I ever wanted I already had. There's glimpses of heaven in every day. In the friends I have, the music I make, the love that I feel. I just had to start again." Bring Me The Horizon- Hospital For Souls

I couldn't sleep that night. Maybe It was the worst idea ever not even trying to get myself to sleep, but I couldn't resist. The funeral that afternoon, the stuff Sinan told me... the thought of Abi being pregnant wasn't going to leave me. 'She's dead!', I told myself. 'And so's that baby...' I layed in bed in my darkened bedroom. Only a few lights from outside were shining trough the windows as I shut my eyes... and opened them directly again. A door closed itself with noise. I looked up and looked trough my open bedroom door. Nothing and nobody was in the appartment exept me. I sighed and layed down again. Maybe I was going paranoid, who knew! Or I just left a door open and the wind closed it for me, which sounded more realsitic. I wasn't an optimist, neither a pessimist, I've always seen things as realistic as possible. But sometimes things are too sureal and fantastic to be realistic, if you know what I mean. It's like what I've told you lately. Remember, life's a bitch? Well, life is. Life's a bitch, nothing more than just a one night stand and everything you can do is fucking her from behind and then let her go again. But life ends when you die and sometimes I wished my personal bitch would be burried alife. It may sounds silly what I'm talking but that's just the way it is. Life became my enemy in game and took almost everything of me. I've seen so many things appear and go again... my parents, a few friends, and now even Abigail. I think you know it was hard for me keeping in mind that she was almost gone forever.

I said 'almost', right? I was on my way to finally drifting to sleep when I heard a terrible noise infront of me. I looked up fast and tryed as good as I could to see what happend. The mirror broke... what the hell? I got up and looked at the mess on the ground. Pieces of the mirror, which was hanging above the dresser, layed on the floor and... was that blood on them? I lifted one bigger piece and looked into it. The lights from outside were enough to see myself a little and I shaked when I saw another person standing right behind me. It was a young female with blood red hair and such a pale skin it looked almost white. I was that shocked I droped the broken fragment immediatly and turned fast. Nobody was behind me...Then I realised I've cut myself with the broken piece. I went over to the bathroom and turned the lights on. It was all okay here, no bloody corpses hanging in the shower or something else like this. I looked into the mirror for a short moment before helding my hands under the streaming cold water to stop the bleeding. It hurt a little, but it helped. As I looked up again I directly leaped back in fear! "He shall burn...", I read. That was standing there in a dark red script on the mirror. And then the lights went out. "What the hell's going on here...?", I asked myself mumbling. I've seen so many horror movies but I never was that scared then there! I found my way back into the bedroom and layed back down, hugging my knees and looking around. "That isn't real...", I told myself. "It can't be..." Well, yes... I could be!