Not Everything Done In The Dark Is Shameful Barson Story

Chapter 4

Maybe you're telling me all this because I'm you're friend. Maybe you trust me?" "Barba answered staring into Olivia's eyes. She quickly broke eye contact. Rafael Barba was a very confident man, and not much scared him, but he was scared his words would send her running again. He watched her get up, and hoped she was not headed for the door. She quickly paced in front of him.

"The last and only person I ever fully trusted let me down."

"Eliot Stabler" The sound of Elliot's name coming from the month of Rafael Barba surprised her and stopped her from pacing. She stood in front of him and said nothing. When he couldn't stand the silence anymore he broke it. He could feel she wanted to ask him something. "I heard his name a few times." His words got her talking again, and that's what he wanted.

"Why?"

"People in the DA's office talk and you know the DA's office and SVU work closely together."

"Elliot hasn't been with the department in years."

"But he was for 12 years. That's a long time."

Olivia placed her hands on her hips. It is. He didn't even tell me he was leaving. I thought he was on leave, but he put his papers in without a word, and he never came back. He never looked back. He could have kept his job. I understand that he earned putting his papers in. I could even see why he would want to at least for awhile. He could have left the job without leaving me.. I saw him almost everyday for 12 years and then nothing. No e-mails, no calls, no face to face meetings., no contact."

"You loved him."

"I know what you're thinking Barba. I never slept with him, we never had a romantic relationship.

"I didn't know you were a mind reader. I didn't say that. I said you loved him."

"He was my friend and if my feelings ever went beyond that it's because he was my friend." She took one hand off her hip and glanced at her watch. It read 3:30AM. Lucy is spending the night at my apartment. The only reason I was able to come here was because she is with Noah. I really need to go now." Barba didn't want her to go, but what could he say to that, Noah needed her. He watched her as she made her way to the door and turned the doorknob.

"Maybe you can talk to me, because you know you can trust me, and you know I'm honestly your friend. The door was now opened, she turned her head to look at him. She looked like something was at the tip of her tongue, but she kept quiet. Call me when you get home."

"Alright" He head her say as she left his apartment and closed his door. Maybe one day I can truly teach her that not everything done in the dark is shameful. He thought to himself. It would be a difficult job considering her life, and her job but he was more than willing to do it. He wanted to do it. He was happy she lived nearby because he wasn't going to sleep until he knew she was home safely.