Not Everything Done In The Dark Is Shameful Barson Story

Not Everything Done In The Dark Is Shameful chapter 25

Olivia gasped softly and quickly turned at Barba's words. She was now facing him. He studied her face, trying to read her every emotion correctly. He backed away a little to give her room, she looked like she was getting ready to bolt. Her eyes were wide with shock, terror and some other emotions he could not name yet. he wanted so badly to continue, but he needed to hear her response first. He watched as she struggled in silence for what felt like an eternity. Suddenly as through some of her training kicked in, she regained some of her control, there was fire in her eyes, and he was glad. She was on the defensive again, but Barba knew he was ready. She was trying to build more walls around herself and calling upon every defense mechanism she had at her disposal. She found her voice. "Take it back!" She said walking toward him and staring into his green eyes.

"No!"

"Take it back!"

"No!" "I love you." He repeated keeping eye contact. She stopped walking toward him, she stood still staring at him, unable to look away. He took one step toward her

"Take it back now Barba!"

Barba chuckled. "You sound like a 5 year old right now." He said.

"Yeah well I spend a lot of time with a 5 year old. Take it back."

"So you can pretend it was never said? So you can pretend it's not true?" He took 2 baby steps closer to her.

"I mean it, take it back!"

"I'm not leaving you, and I'm never taking it back."

"Barba I'm not joking."

"Do I look like I'm joking?"

"You can't say things like that to me."

"I did. What are you going to do about it Lieutenant?"

"Barba, you need to take it back right now." She said, her voice soft and shaking. He shook his head in a no motion, and took another step toward her. A part of her wanted to look away from him, the way she had so many times in her office. A part of her wanted to run again. This part of her was the part of her that unusually won out, the part of her that was responsible for most of her decisions, but to her surprise despite that look in Rafael Barba's green eyes, she found herself slowly walking to him. "You don't know what you're saying. Just take it back."

"Oh I know exactly what I'm saying." Barba answered in his take charge courtroom voice. "I know you Olivia Benson, and I love you. That is never going to change." He wanted to reach out, and grab her hand, but it was not the time.

"Stop saying things like that to me now." She wanted to scream that he didn't know her, but that would be an insulting lie. She was running out of words she could say truthfully. She was running out of arguments. She knew Rafael Barba as much as he know her. She knew he was not out of arguments, and never would be, because he cared, and that was one of the many ways he showed it. She took a step back, he took a step forward, and there was that look of determination in his eyes that she knew so well, and loved.

"Te Quiero Olivia."" He said gently. He heard her inhale softly. He was holding her gaze. He wanted to wrap his arms around her, he needed to show her he could be her protector, and he would.

Olivia thought about taking another step toward him, but instead she put her right hand up in front of her. "Don't" She said, her voice was shaking, and she sounded like she was on the verge of tears.

"Olivia Mi Amor!" He yelled excitedly with a smile. With that Olivia was off like a shot running back into her small kitchen, she thought of running outside into the street without a word, but she didn't want to worry him like she did weeks ago. He slowly walked in her direction.