f o r a n y o n e h u r t i n g | p o e m s

XXVI

this feels good 

but's it's so bad

i know you're hurting me

but i don't care

i still see you as the person you used to be

i still see you as the person i met

but

you aren't the person you used to be

you aren't the person i met

you are fillied hatred 

you are vicious 

abusive

cold blooded 

violet

menacing 

but i am truly not able to admit that

i think you are  woderful

you are beaituful 

thoughtful

kind hearted 

hysterical 

amazing

those words seem convincing enough to myself

don't they

i feed myself lies

i say you're perfect for me when i know you're not

because i don't want to be alone

i'd rather have bruises than be alone