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i still refuse to sleep on your side of the bed

i know that's your spot. i remember.

i still keep your pillow on your chair propped up.

i know you didn't like it slouching. i remember.

i still keep white roses in a blue vase on the coffee table.

i know you loved white roses and hated red ones, i remember.

i remember what you love.

i remember what you enjoy.

and your habits became mine

and now i can't take your habits away from me.

because they help me believe you're still here.

my friends have started calling me crazy.

they're saying you aren't here, that you're in a better place.

but it was all a myth when they said you're in a better place

because if you were really in a better place

you'd be here with me.

but you're gone.

forever gone. forever gone from me.

and i try telling myself that you're in a better place

but i can't bring myself to it.

because you're still here..

i know it....

i know it.

i know it.

[delusional]