My Christian dating life

Chapter 5

Everyone knew about our relationship and I can say I was obsessed with this guy. I even made a group chat that was named "bridesmaids" with all my friends who I wanted to be my bridesmaids on my "wedding" with Chris. We even started choosing dresses from the internet and as a young girl it was quite exciting for me.
I do believe Chris loved me too, in fact everyone believed he would never break up with me if I didn't. He would tell everyone about me and even though his parents weren't open to knowing that he was dating they knew about me. He introduced me to his family and I became friends with his sister and his cousin and up to today we are still friends.
Of course we had our low moments in the relationship but we were so determined we always managed to overcome our differences. We were really dating for marriage and it didn't matter to us how long it took, we just wanted to get there. Chris even suggested that he wanted to get engaged straight after high school but I refused because I knew my parents were too strict to accept that.
One important aspect about our relationship was that we had agreed to never have sex before marriage and we kept that. He always told me he respected me and I believed him because I could really see that he did.
I don't want to make myself seem like I was perfect in the relationship, I had my own shortfalls but one of the worst things that I really feel bad about is when he found some messages in my friend's phone. We were at a church camp and there was a guy named Nate who had come from a foreign country. I really loved his accent and truth be told he was also cute. My friends and I always texted our conversations even if we were sitting next to each other. I remember one time I even referred to him as "my Nate" in our conversations and I kept talking about how cute he was. It then happened that Chris read those messages but he let it go, he didn't confront me about it which made me feel even worse.
We had small arguments such as he was always talking to too many girls and I'd complain about it. In fact most of his friends were girls and he would justify it by saying that he grew up with girls so that's what he was used to.
Another problem I had with him was he had a female best friend and he said they became best friends because they almost dated when they were younger but they didn't. It didn't really settle well with me but somehow I managed to live with it and even became friends with the girl, who turned out to be my cousin.
Many people told us that we wouldn't even reach 7 months and when we passed it everyone admired our relationship. I remember his friend saying to me "you guys are my inspiration, your relationship is the reason why I'm still with my girlfriend" and I believe it because he only broke up with her after we broke up.