The next day my friend Cathy asked me to escort her to the sports fields to see her boyfriend and I knew Chris would be there because he was always with her boyfriend. We went there and just as I had predicted they were there together, so I went and sat next to Chris.
The previous day, Monday, we had been disagreeing with Chris about something I had texted him until Chris took out his phone to show me our conversation. He opened his conversation with Tamia by mistake then he quickly closed it. It was so suspicious so I asked him what was there and he said there was nothing.
On Tuesday Chris gave me his phone and I told him I was going to open his conversation with Tamia because he had acted really suspicious. He kept assuring me that I wouldn't find anything amiss but I still went and read the messages.
I don't know what happened, up to now all I remember is one particular message and the rest I don't remember. The worst part about it is that this message was from the previous night and it was from Tamia to Chris. It read "I'm having second thoughts about having sex with you because I keep seeing your girlfriend".
I think I had a blackout because I just phased out for a moment. All I could see was black and when my senses came back I just heard Chris' voice saying "what did you see?". I took his phone and I tried to go to the message I had seen but there was no strength in me. I failed and all I could do was give him back his phone and stand up.
I went to Cathy and her boyfriend and I said exactly these words "Cathy can we please go." I couldn't even say it clearly because my eyes were watery, I wanted to just break down and cry.
When Cathy stood up Chris came and held my hand asking me to talk to him. I remember shoving away his hand and I walked away crying on Cathy's shoulder.
It really felt like a dream and so many times I told myself I was ready to wake up from this dream but it never happened because it wasn't a dream after all. My heart was beating for the rest of the day and all I managed to do was fake smile to people. Most people did notice that I wasn't okay and they'd ask me, I'd just break down and cry.
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My Christian dating life
SpiritualThis is a narrative of my dating life up to date. I hope this will teach many people lessons through the mistakes that I made. I'm a Christian so I highlight it from a Christian perspective although it has lessons to teach everyone.
