'Inevitable' Taekook Fanfiction

Chapter Three

Kim Taehyung's Point of View

>TIME SKIP<

It's been three weeks since I've had the hanahaki disease and I think it's getting worse. I have coughing fits much more often and from time to time I've started coughing up blood. I haven't told any of the member's that I only have a few months left to live, mainly because I do not want them to worry, but also the reason I have this disease is because of Jungkook and I don't want to put pressure on him and cause any fights. It's my fault for loving him, meaning it is my problem and not theirs. 

Today will be a little harder to hide this disease as we all have dance practice for majority of the day and then later on Jimin, Hoseok and Jin have vocal training. I'm wearing these comfortable black jeans that have front and back pockets today so if need be I can place the flower petals in them. I also have an over-sized black sweater to hide the fact that I've lost a bit of weight recently. I haven't had much of an appetite recently and also when I can't sleep I go on runs even if it is 4am in the morning. 

I had just gotten into the van which will take the group to the studio, sighing in relief as I sat in the back of the van with Yoongi. I'll just pretend to sleep if someone trys to talk to me as I didn't feel up to speaking with everyone. My throat was a bit hoarse and dry after I coughed out blood and petals after breakfast this morning. My nausea had lessened thankfully.

Namjoon was in the front with our manager, who was driving, while Jin, Jimin, Jungkook and Hoseok were behind. I saw Jungkook let Jimin rest his head on his shoulder as if he was going to go to sleep.

Yeah probably, because all they do is cuddle and kiss at night instead of actual sleeping. I thought bitterly trying to glare at the back of their heads but failing. I mean as lone as they are happy right?

With all these thoughts racing around my mind about the two I had the urge to cough and let out the petals building up in my throat. Can't my throat wait until we're outside, between the van and the studio?

I couldn't hold back for long and let it out with one harsh cough hoping to get them all out at once. I looked to my left and saw Yoongi, his head leaning back and his eyes closed. I opened my hand and saw three flower petals spotted with red blood. I glared at them before covering them in a small cloth and placing it in my front jeans pocket.

I lent my head against the small window and made a few weird noises with my mouth. No one turned to question me as it was a normal thing I did from time to time.  I continued looking out the window not really paying attention to anything, my mind was at a blank and I just let it be.

Min Yoongi's Point of View

It might appear as if I am sleeping at the moment but really my eyes are just the slightest bit open. I could still see what was going on around me, why did I do this? It's one of the things I do when I am not busy working or sleeping. I observe people, a lot to be honest. Now recently, I have been observing Taehyung. 

Generally he's just an odd kid who is amazingly talented and ranked one of the most best looking  guys in the world. That's just what everyone sees though. Being apart of the same group and living together makes it easier to observe him. 

The past few weeks I've noticed he's took it a notch down on his energy. I saw this when I told him to keep me warm so I could sleep. He had actually fallen asleep as well when usually he refuses and literally bounces out of the room to do God knows what. When he thinks no one notices he lets out some nasty coughs which gives me a vibe that hes coming down with some sort of sickness. 

The next thing I've noticed is that Taehyung seems to have taken a liking , or an obsession, to purple Syringa flowers. It's quite strange really, he buys a new bunch of them every few days and places them on the table beside his bed. He won't buy them for the kitchen, lounge room or bathroom, just for his table. I will probably stop looking into this because it could turn out to be just like Jin's obsession of pink things. 

A violent cough brought me out of my thoughts and I turned to look at Taehyung who sat beside me. He pulled his hand down from his mouth and opened it. That is when I saw lilac colored flower petals spotted with a red liquid in his hand. 

I saw him look at my side and that's when I fully closed my eyes pretending I was asleep. After 30 seconds had passed I opened my eyes to see Taehyung staring out the window not really paying attention to anything though. I could tell because of his eyes, they looked empty. 

"You've got to be f*cking kidding me" I swore under my breath. I knew what illness, or should I say, what disease Taehyung has. The same thing happened with one of my cousins, she's fine now though, her lover had accepted her before she got to the brink of death. 

But if Taehyung has already been coughing up blood he can't have got it just recently It's also an extremely rare disease, only one in every 100 people get it and even then sometimes they do not. I almost swore again as I thought of how far along Taehyung was, what if he doesn't make it past the first two months? BTS will fall apart, we aren't a group without everyone

I let out a sigh an scratched the back of my neck, how will I even approach him about this? I continued thinking about how I'll ask Taehyung about him having the hanahaki disease. 

Maybe I can just talk to Taehyung privately while some of the others go to their vocal coaching? I nod my head silently, that sounds good. After figuring that out I continue to observe Taehyung through my half closed eyes. 

He wore black jeans with four pockets, I now guess to hide the flower petals when he coughs them up. Taehyung also wore an over-sized sweater that hung loosely on him. Maybe to keep him from being cold? No he doesn't get cold easily, oh he's loosing weight. It happened to my cousin as well, she lost around eight kilos in a month because she wouldn't eat properly. I'll have to make sure he stays at a healthy weight and to make sure he eats enough at breakfast and dinner. 

I've noticed he's skipped breakfast a few times the past week, not even Jin could get him to eat something as Taehyung made some very convincing excuses. That made me start to wonder, what else has he hidden so well that no one else knows?

I know the main question though, Who does he love enough to make the hanahaki disease develop inside of his lungs? We honestly don't talk to that many people though. Also is he straight? Is he gay? Is he somewhere in between? I had never bothered to figure that out before. I mentally flicked my forehead, it would make things a lot more easier if I at least knew his sexuality!

"Hyung! Move, we're here. Stop sleeping!" I get brought back out of my thoughts by Taehyung who was shaking my shoulder. I pretended I was actually asleep and stretched a bit faking a yawn. I looked back at Taehyung as I got out of the van, he wore his usual cheery expression, box smile, straight posture, weird aura and personality, but now I could tell something wasn't right. I furrowed my eyebrows as I walked a few steps form where Taehyung and Namjoon were conversing about something as they walked. What was different? What was unusual? What was wrong?

"Hyung hurry up!" I heard Taehyung say and that's when I noticed I was a little behind everyone else. To make it seem like I was thinking about serious topics I grumbled back saying that I had just been woken up from my sleep. Taehyung just laughed at me when our eyes made contact.

 I turned my head to the side a little when our eyes connected They were what was so different. What is the line? your eyes are the window to your soul? Even if Taehyung could put on a mask, it stops at his eyes. That is how I could tell he wasn't his usual self. 

As soon as we all got into the studio, there wasn't any messing around. After we put our bags down we got straight into working on old and new choreo, correcting the current ones and perfecting the older ones. 

As I knew the move we were currently working on I looked over my shoulder to Taehyung, his hand was in his pocket and his eyes darted from the right were Jimin stood working on his technique. I sighed hoping he was alright. 

I don't think he has started choking yet, that is when the flower petals will come at random moments and fill your throat until you start choking on the petals, saliva and blood. It sounds so disgusting. My cousin never experienced that but I had read up on it multiple times to understand the whole process.