'Inevitable' Taekook Fanfiction

Chapter Five

Kim Taehyung's Point Of View

In the past, usually, I would be bored with Yoongi hyung whenever the two of us were left at the dorm together. Now, it is the complete opposite. We play different types of games in our spare time, nap on the couch while a boring movie is playing.

He makes sure I am healthy, which means eating enough, drinking plenty of water and making sure if something is wrong to tell him immediately. I make sure that he isn't over-working himself all of the time, whether that be physically or mentally.

We have become each other's closest companion recently. Yoongi helps me steer my thoughts away when things start to go badly and sometimes he gives me hope, that I will actually be alright, then a flower petal makes it way out of my mouth and I am reminded how much closer I get to death with each passing day.

Today is clear of Jungkook, clear of Jimin, clear of all of the members. We decided to stay at the dorm on our day off while everyone else is doing their own activities. To be honest, I didn't feel like doing anything but sleeping today.

I stayed up extremely late last night looking up and reading through case studies and reports on the hanahaki disease. I wanted to educate myself further because I was the one who actually had this disease, and I found out that Yoongi was right. The hanahaki disease is the rarest disease in the world. There have been only 16 cases known worldwide, 17 now including me but because I haven't been hospitalized, well no one knows.

I don't plan to be hospitalized either, because I would then be forced into taking the surgery, I would be kicked from the group because I am unfit to be there, angry and hurt fans to deal with. So I just have to be strong, I'll be alright, won't I?

As I walked out of my room, pulling a fluffy grey sweater on I started quietly singing an English song I had heard before. It was in fact in one of my music playlists so I kind of listened to it a lot.

"I can fake a smile, I can force a laugh, I can dance and play the part if that's what you ask, give you all I am, I can do it, I can do it, I can do it..."

"But I'm only human, and I bleed when I fall down, I'm only human, and I crash and I break down, your words in my head, knives in my heart, you build me up and then I fall apart, cause I'm only human..."

Because I have listened to this song so many times I've not only learnt the English lyrics but I have also learnt the meaning behind every one of these lines.

"I'm only human" I whisper to myself as I walk into the living area of the dorm. I noticed that Yoongi was already there. He was sitting cross legged on the two seater couch with a huge blanket wrapped up around his whole body. It was almost as if the blanket was trying to eat him whole. I understood though because it's starting to get colder as Winter has just arrived.

"You know I wish I could sing like you Taehyung-ah" Yoongi said softly as I sat down next to him on the couch. I let out a chuckle.

"You're making quite a bit of progress hyung but you need to stop making us laugh in the middle of sentences" He smiles and wraps the huge blanket around me too. Truth be told I had starting teaching him how to sing properly, it was a fun time for the two of us.

"What's that english song you were singing? What was it called?" I got my phone out of my tracksuit pocket and found the song in amongst my playlist.

"It is called Human" I pressed play and put the korean subtitles on so Yoongi could understand the meaning of the lyrics being sung. His eyes closed while he listened to the instrumental part and they opened again when the artist starting singing again.

"There's a sort of sadness embedded into it, the way the song is made, it is intriguing and makes you just want to listen to it again and again." I nodded at my Hyung's words.