Misspelling | soulmate AU

I still want you...

20 years later.

We never talked after that.

His thoughts sometimes lingered in my brain but that's all.

I got married to Jake, his soulmate had apparently died at a young age.

I saw my brother twice.

One time he was getting kicked out from a store, he was begging them to let him stay.

I just scoffed and walked away.

The second was on a bridge, we were the only two people there.

He said "You threw me out of the house, but most importantly, your life." I just nodded.

"You still deserve love" he said, his voice breaking.

"I thought I did, all my life. I'm smarter now." I stated.

"Goodbye" He said and jumped off the bridge.

His last words will haunt me forever. 'Live'

Now I'm standing in front of my soulmate, he is holding a girl by the waist.

he's smiling, he is doing the same as me, pretending.

His smile is fake, his eyes with no emotion.

His beautiful green eyes, I want to see the love in them.

He spots me and we take a minute just looking at each other.

I still want him, I want to hear him in my mind whispering sweet nothings.

Saying he loves me, tell me about his day, I want that.

I want to be held by him.

I want to be the one whispering in your mind, 

Saying I love you, telling you about the good and bad.

I want to hold you in my arms.

But in the end, we both walk away. 

Walk away from each other, because we know.

We don't deserve love.

This was sad, even for me.

I'm listening to The truth untold so that doesn't help.