"LIGHT Upon LIGHT"

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Assalamu Alaykum..

My name is Romaissae & i want to share my story with you..

There was that black period in my life..
That moment everything went wrong
( Well i thought so, not knowing what the plan was from Al Waliy ♡♡♡) i really had no idea, the problems were fired at me thats how i felt... it didn't stop..

What hurt me the most was my fathers call.. i heard he had cancer & the doctor couldn't do anything for him.. he had max. 3years left.. there was no person in my life who loved me more than my father ♡♡♡ so this was a bomb that touches me
those other problems i will keep to myself..
But because of all these problems.. i one day lay in bed.. thinking about a song

[ Why am I dying to live, if I'm just living to die? ] - Tupac/Biggie

Then i asked god crying please if u really exists i beg u make it easy for me.. this weight is to much.. ( I wasn't really a believing person, but i also never said there ain't no god )

When i calmed down.. i go further with my life.. forgetting this 'du3a' i did..

I had a relationship with the father of my 2 sons.. he was my first love..
We were together for 8years..
It wasnt really a healthy relationship, but i always had hope that someday oneday things will change.. & our relationship would be 'healthy' and also i just wanted to stay by my first love for life.. like i think every girl hopes..

I had a (born muslim) friend and she liked to look interviews from celebrities.. it really never took my interest..
But then we get to another level.. waw..
Those famous stars: beyonce, katy pery etc. loudly said: nothing in my live worked out.. soooo:: I SOLD MY SOUL TO THE DEVIL.. 😱😱😱
This took my interest! It freaked me out and i wanted to know more about the devil/illuminati.. i discovered something and the more i searched the more i found out that Shaytan is real!
So i think +/- within 2 months, i was convinced we really had a soul & that the devil is real!
Sooo if the devil is real.. there must be a God who created him..

This same friend of my started practising islam so first we talked hours of how evil this world was #illuminati.. but at this moment we talked about islam for hours! Everytime she lefted my house.. my interest was to high to stop..
I still remember i kept playing the reminder about Jannah 😂 waaaw 😍

While i discovered how beautiful islam is.. i looked at my relationship/life again.. and that was my moment i thought..
no, there is nothing going to change here.. i had to make a change first..

Verily, Allaah will not change the condition of a people as long as they do not change their state themselves [al-Ra’d 13:11]

So i decided to stop this unhealthy relationship.. Allah really gave me power to do this.. he left our house.. and then i was ready for it..
It was on a friday.. 31 okt. 2014
I drove to my friends house and i told her i now want to became a muslim..
So i never forget her men came running with al kahf in his hands and my friend with her wudhu thing

I said the shahada just with my friend and we prayed together.. on a other time i did my shahada again at the mosque..
this was such a warm feeling..

I felt the urge for prayer.. but i didn't know by myself how to perform it.. it frustrated me.. so what did i do 😂
I learned myself the moves..
& I prayed with my phone in my hand, not looking at the ground but on my phone reading salah..  hoping Allah accepted it..
It felt like a dream come true: praying fajr in the middle of the night 😍 .. i realised that on this same time so many muslims got out there bed.. to remember Allah with this same feeling i felt subhan Allah.. but now i pray for 3 years and i realise that getting up for fajr is not always easy 😂😂😂
That same night i got a dream.. i will never understand or forget..
It felt real even when i was awake..
It felt like there was a men standing next to me the right side( not a evil men, but it scared me ) but this men was maybe 100times longer than me.. he did nothing but just be there.. but that freaked me out.. so i ran to the bathroom to do wudhu.. i stil was a bit shocked and thinking about what i just experienced..
Audhu billahi minash shaitani rajiem..
I said this a couple of times.. i knew this would take my fear away.. Alhamdulillah..

So i prayed 1 week the same way as the first night.. and than there was fajr again ( still thinking all muslims stayed up in love for fajr ) but no.. wait.. is this real.. my battery is empty.. it really frustrated me and i started walkin little circles in the room, that this is ruining my day.. but then i choose No.. no.. no!
Im going to pray.. period..
So i forced myself and performed prayer..
Ya Allah forgive me if i do it wrong.. but i need to pray..
So i began.. and this was my first time i prayed with khushoo, my eyes on the right place & me hhh ME reciting Arabic without my phone.. waw.. Allahu akbar.. from this moment i did my prayer without any help bi idni Llah.. it felt powerfull

Than i realized the du3a i made, while i wasn't a believer.. it was heard!..
Wait a minute.. it was Allah that made me do that du3a!
So my heart felt peaceful.. even though my situation was not relaxed..
But i changed my state of life so could it be that Allah made it easy for me to endure it with ease..
Okay i will call 1 other problem i had at that time..
We would lose our house.. it was just a matter of time.. i think u can imagine how that feels.. subhan Allah, suddenly i had peace with it..
even though my children were small..
Maybe because of my attitude Allah really made it easy for me.. because we still live in this house nowadays.. nothing happend.. Alhamdulillah Allah solved my problem..

So yes 31 10 2014.. was my blessed day..
I reverted and automatically my children too..

Alhamdulillah 3ala ne3mat al islaam ♡♡♡