Best Friends Or More?????

Chapter 20

~Natalie~

I grab my stomach and weave through the group of pack fighters running as fast as I can. Once I make it past the last pack fighters I run up the stairs and go as fast as I can to the infirmary.

"Where's Justin?" I ask a nurse. She gives me a sorrowful look and points to a room with the door closed. I run and push the door open stopping instantly. A sob breaks through as I see Justin laying on the bed. He had cuts and bruises all over his body. He had a big cut on his neck and blood was pouring out of it and another on his leg. His arm was bent at an awkward angle. He had an oxygen mask on and an IV in his arm pumping blood in his system. His skin is pasty white.

"Honey we need you to wait in the hallway." A nurse says trying to get me out of the room.

"No I can't leave him!" I say sobbing.

"We need our space I promise we will do what ever it takes for him to be okay." She says as she gets me outside and shuts the door. I sit down in a chair and sob in to my hands as the image of Justin is burned in to my brain.

"Natalie is he okay?" I hear as Ashley and Sam sit down on either side of me. I cry in to Ashley's shoulder and Sam rubs my back.

"He looks so bad!" I sob. They comfort me but it isn't helping. I look up as I see Pattie come in. I stand up and she looks at me before pulling me in to a hug. I wrap my arms around her and we cry in to each others shoulders. Jeremy comes over and hugs us both to him. An hour later we all look up as a doctor walks out of Justin's room. Pattie and I step forward instantly joined soon by the others.

"Is he gonna be ok?" I ask through my sobs. The doctor gives me a look of pity.

"We did everything we could but it isn't guaranteed he will live." I sob and fall to the floor. Pattie turns and sobs in to Jeremy's chest. Ashley and Sam bend down hugging me. "He lost a lot of blood and with his injuries we aren't sure his body will be able to heal it by itself." The doctor says before walking off. I stand up on shaky legs and hurry in to Justin's room. He laid on the bed his arm now in a cast and some bandages on his body. I walk over and sit on his right where an IV stuck in his arm where they had blood running through it.

"Please don't leave me Justin." I sob bending my head down. I bring his hand up and kiss it lightly. "I need you, I can't raise our baby alone. Please don't make me do that." I sob. Soon the others come in. Pattie and Jeremy pull two chairs up and sit next to him. I lay my right arm on the bed so it is bent and my hand is laying on his arm and my thumb rubs his arm. I lay my head on my arm and kiss his hand before laying my forehead against his fist.

"It will be ok Nat." Ryan says laying his hand on my shoulder. I just close my eyes and rub Justin's hand. I kiss his hand again before holding it to my forehead as tears stream down my cheeks.

After a couple hours everyone walks out going to eat dinner. Pattie hugs me saying she will bring me something back. I just stare at Justin as they leave. I rub his hand with my thumb and plant another kiss on his fist. I had moved my head a little before sitting up and moving my chair closer to his head. I cup his cheek with my hand. He felt cold which wasn't normal. Justin was always warm. More tears rushed down my face as I leaned up and kissed his cheeks.

"Am I selfish?" I whisper. "I want you back so bad and I want you with me but what if it's your time. Maybe you'll be happy?" I whisper but stop as a sob breaks through. "I'm scared Justin. I know I have a lot of people who will love me and would help me with our little baby but I just want you here. I need you here. I don't know what I would do with out you. I don't know if I would be able to go on. I don't want our baby to suffer like I did when my parents passed." I say and kiss his shoulder. "The doctor told me that if I talk to you that you would be able to hear me. So I just want you to know that I love you and I always will." I say kissing him before moving back and sitting in the same position as I did before. I hear the door open but don't move as some one comes and stands beside me.

"I brought you something to eat sweet heart." I hear Pattie whisper as she set the plate down beside me.

"I'm not hungry." I say.

"You need to eat. You won't only hurt yourself if you don't eat you will hurt the baby." She says and I feel more tears slip out as I sit up. I look at the table to see a bowl of Mac and cheese with cut up hotdogs and ketchup on the side. I grab the bowl and started eating still holding Justin's hand.

"What about Justin they can't just let him starve." I say looking up at her.

"Oh honey they won't they have medicine to put in his IV so he won't starve." (I am not 100% sure they actually do this but let's just roll with it.) she says and I nod looking back at him. I push my self to eat for my baby but when I am done I put the bowl down and sit in the chair crossing my legs under me and hold Justin's hand with both of mine.

"Do you think the gods are punishing me? Maybe I didn't love him enough so they don't think I'm worthy enough to have one?" I ask looking up at Pattie with my lip quivering and tears gather in my eyes.

"Oh no sweet heart. If anything you should be rewarded for how much you love Justin. Your mate bond is one of the strongest I have ever seen. You both love each other so much and it makes me proud to know you are each other's mate. I wouldn't want anyone else for my son or for you for that matter. You have always been like a daughter to me and when you two discovered your mate bond my heart swelled knowing you both will be happy. This just happened you aren't being punished Natalie because there is nothing they can punish you for. If there is one thing I know about Justin it is that he is a fighter and he loves you and is so excited for this baby, he wouldn't miss the chance to see the baby grow up or grow old with you." I the smile through my tears hugging her.

"I need him Pattie! I love him so much I can't live with out him." I sob and she rubs my back.

"He wouldn't make you live with out him." She whispers and soon I stop before go back to holding Justin's hand.

At night every one leaves and I get a blanket curling up in my seat. I weave my fingers through Justin's and lay my head down.

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Hey guys so I'm gonna try something new. One of My favorite author on wattpad list when the next chapter will be out, usually in a week, so I think I'm going to do the same thing.

Next update: Thursday the 23rd