Eliminated Memories

• Tommorow •

I considered it at first.
Then doubted it.
And then thought it was possible.
Once again I am lost in my thoughts so much that I forget what I'm trying to decide.
Maybe Seamus is right. Maybe it is possible. Maybe I or we can do this.
I get up and slip my shoes on.

"So I was thinking that we can do it"
I say letting myself in.
I'm glad that the orphanage has everyone in separate rooms or else I won't be able to talk to Seam without everyone else being able to hear.

His faced owned the brightest grin I've ever seen.

"Now your talking," he says quietly but loud enough for me to know how excited he is

"So, what now?" I ask casually

"Now we make a plan"
And that's when we get to it.
Our plan was big and such a huge risk but we promised to take that risk bravely. This plan depended on our lives.

Two hours went by and were laying down on the floor of his bedroom.

"This is going to be extraordinary," he says with a smirk still on his face.

"We're being stupid you know?" I say even though I'm smiling

"If this plan works then ill be your maid for however long you want."

"I'd rather have you buy me ice cream" I've never had ice cream or so I think I haven't. Neither I or Seamus remember anything from a year ago. Only the first day here. At the orphanage.

We decided to start the plan tomorrow during clean up at 8 p.m. or so.
Until then we do everything just as we would on a normal day. I want to tell him about Mrs.crousel but I don't want her getting mixed up in this. Whatever all this is.

"Should I bring anything?"

"Yeah. But not too much though, make it easy to carry. I'll bring food and water and you can bring blankets and extra clothes."

"Alright," I say nervously "it's alright"

A few 30 minutes later I start to head toward my room to end the night when Mrs. Crousel is waiting for me by my door.

"Where have you been?"

"Sorry, Mrs.Crousel, I just needed to talk to Seamus"

"Do you know what time it is?" She whispers in a very urgent voice

"Yes Mrs.Crousel but he didn't seem to mind my presence at all"

"Of course he didn't," she says this like I'm dumb or something.

"What do you mean?"

"Oh! Nevermind girl." She's impatient

"Just be more careful, if you get caught out of your room and especially with a boy then they'll take you away from me."

"Yes mom" I joke
She gives me a cold stare

"Charmel, I'm serious. You need to be more careful around here. Watch what you're doing or one day you will regret it" she says this in a comforting way. Like she's trying to protect me from something. Something she longs to tell.
It's just then that I realized that if I go with Seamus then it means I'm leaving her too. And so I decided to tell her. I trust her with everything, even my life.
I start telling her my and Seamus's plan.

"You're what?!, " she gasps "why? When?"

"Tomorrow, " I say, "I thought you deserved to know"

"Oh, darling--" she cuts off her sentence and grabs my arm to pull me. I don't know where we are going but I know there's no point in asking.

We reach the kitchen and Crousel starts looking for something.

"What are you doing?" I ask

"Looking for knives and my gun to give you" I go still at that

"What? Why?"

"Charmel, it's a dangerous world out there. If you're going to make it out there then you'll need these, " she hands me two pocket knives and a black gun. It felt heavy on my hands.

"Are you sure? Won't you get in trouble?"
She smiles. At a time like this.

"Not if you or I tell"
I do a sign of zipping mouth.

I hug her tight "thank you! thank you!thank you!" I say a bit too loudly.

"Shhh! At a rate like this, you'll wake the whole forest up!"
I swat at her playfully and she chuckles.
"I'm going to miss you so much!"

"Come with us?" I ask hopefully

"They'll be suspicious" she doesn't say who but I don't press my luck today.

"Alright then," I say sadly

"Hey, " she says and I look up to see her scared eyes, "be careful"

"Why aren't you stopping me? Saying that I'm out of my mind?" I ask

"Because you wouldn't listen" she smiles. She looks so happy when she smiles.
"Go now. You'll need all rest you can get"

"I love you" I hug her one last time

"Love you more Charmel."
I look at her one more time before heading for my room.
Tomorrow is going to be the best and worst day of my life.

When I get to my room I couldn't even look at the bed. So I start packing for tomorrow.
Seamus said to make it light. So I packed 2 blankets and hid the gun and knives under them.
I packed a few shirts and two shorts and my favourite hoodie. I don't remember where these clothes came from but there here with me now so why question it at this point?

I hide the quick-pack backpack that was made two years ago In 2064. I got it when I came here. It's really useful. You can change your backpack to miniature size to take with you whenever you want. I then put my one and only pair of PJs on and turn my lamp on. I get on my bed and start reading a book.
Only a page and a half later I fall asleep. I'm not surprised at how fast I fell asleep though. Too much excitement.

"Tomorrow's a big day," I tell myself.