Just Watch Me

Funeral Beach Chic

I shed my self-hatred
(That was really yours to begin with, you dick)
and grew wings of acceptance that were decorated with love.

Bright spots blooming like flowers 
as I unfurled them, still tender, to the world.
Saying "This is me, like it or fuck off."

I am more than my body
I am my mind, soul and heart 
Just floating in a fleshy cocoon.

My mantra is love as I peruse the swimsuits 
Thinking maybe a bikini this year
No, definitely a bikini, fuck onepieces.

I grab size after size 
trying not to think about the numbers
that have started to attach themselves to the X

XL Wtf, must be made small 
0X Damn my boobs grew, sweet I guess 
1X It's about the fit not the size, you are not a number
2X .....compressed silence 

I leave the 3X on it's hanger 
I leave them all on their hangers 
a double rainbow of disappointments.

"Hip-slimming" 
"Waist cinching" 
"Breast reducing" 
And of course most importantly
black. 

Funeral Beach Chic 
Where curves come to die   
and body-positivity means
you don't grab the shorts of shame.
This time at least.

   

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So I entered this collection into the 2019Wattys. What does that mean? Well I haven't a clue, been writing on here since 2012 and I have never took the time to learn about them. But hey I entered them this year, so I guess I'll find out...maybe...
But if you have to vote, or get a chance to vote (where I again have no idea) then it would mean a lot if you voted for this. But only if you want to, not going to force you to do something but if you have gotten this far then I think you might like what I do so....
Thank you all again for the support and sorry I have been gone for so long, I had to take a break due to medical issues but I am back now!

Enough ranting

Peace
M.Alice :)