Before you left

chapter eight

"Why did you leave?" Clarke says straight to the point. Not in an angry way, but in a way in which he knows she wants the absolute complete answer.

"Bellamy, I'm not leaving until I get the truth." Clarke says folding her arms in frustration because Bellamy hasn't answered

"If you don't answer in the next 10 seconds I am leaving Arcadia with Aurora and I am never coming back."Clarke says as Bellamy continues to just stand there

"3...2...1..." Clarke says staring to count down, but doesn't finish because Bellamy interrupts her

"Okay. Okay. I'll tell you everything." Bellamy says interrupting Clarke

"Go on." Clarke says calming down a little

"After my mom died I worked 3 jobs to make sure Octavia and I had enough money to live comfortably. I did some stupid things that ended up catching up to me." Bellamy says as he starts to explain why he left

"But how does that explain why you left? What did you do?" Clarke asks more curious than furious

"I met some bad people and I did some bad things. But I needed the money to keep the house and to take care of Octavia and I. I had no choice." Bellamy says finally revealing the truth to Clarke as to why he left

"Bellamy..." Clarke starts to say as she is stunned as to why Bellamy left her and Aurora

"Once I was stable enough I stopped doing all those bad things. I became a cop because I didn't want anyone to have to do what I did. Then we started dating and then Aurora came and I thought everything was going to be okay. But the bad people I used to work with found out that I was a cop and they threatened to expose the things I did and hurt you and Aurora if I didn't leave. I had to leave Clarke. Please understand, I had to. I couldn't let them hurt you." Bellamy pleads to Clarke as tears form in his eyes and Clarke's eyes

"But you hurt us." Clarke says as tears start to fall from her face

"Clarke, I'm so sorry. I couldn't tell you why. They would follow us and I didn't want to risk hurting you or Aurora." Bellamy says as tears still well in his eyes

"Bellamy, I had to take care of a 3-year old by myself. I had to sell everything we had in order to have enough money to buy a plane ticket for the both of us to move back in with my mom. We barely had enough money to survive the first two weeks after you left us." Clarke starts to say with tears streaming down her face

"I have anxiety and depression now. I've tried to hurt myself because I couldn't bare with the pain. I have to take pills daily because of what you did." Clarke says as she tries to control her crying. Bellamy looks in shock and regret about what he did

"Clarke, I'm so sorry for what I did. I don't expect you to ever forgive me. I don't expect you to ever let me see Aurora after what I did. I don't expect you to ever want to be around me and I will live with this regret for the rest of my life." Bellamy says wiping tears away from his eyes and Clarke is trying to calm herself down

"As much as it hurts to say this, I don't know if I can forgive you this easy. It'll take time for me to get over it, again, but I'm sure it'll happen happen." Clarke says wiping the tears from her eyes and calming herself down