i walked back to my house as usual no ones in there just me, i was scrolling through my phone then a message appeared, me being curious i clicked it.
unknown
unknown
u bitchass snake, u took
johnny and im gonna get him
back, fuck you
me
woah woah, ok sis ion care
he doesn't like u and snake my
ass fuck u too baiiiiii.
i let out my ugliest laugh, that bitch had the urge to say that to me, nah uh he's mine and me? a snake well her "boyfriend" loves me soooo
i then get another message from that number
unknown
unknown
lmao u wish
unknown
u whore
me
well sad to say hun your boyfriend
doesn't like you back go fuck with
someone he doesn't deserve u dumb
fucker, and nadia go fuck with ashton
yall both suck and oh, im not a whore
im just loved 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
i smiled, she thought she can just do me like that, but it makes me question too, what if he doesn't really love me, maybe there's a whole twist that is coming near.
what if i wasn't enough for him.......
those thoughts constantly pops in my head, even though i tried to push them away it just doesn't go away, i layed on my bed, and closed my eyes.
you're not loved, he doesn't love you, no one likes you, you're useless, worthless.
i snapped back and without noticing a tear fell down my cheek, damn it feels somethings going wrong but i don't know what it is.
why do i always need to overthink, why am i like this, why can't i just trust johnny, why do i have to be knocked out with this thoughts that are killing me constantly.
why is it so unfair, why can't i just feel what is like to be loved without worrying, why can't i just stop being overdramatic.
i sat down on my bed and started snapping my fingers and shaking my left leg, and try to shift my thoughts.
i started to shake, i stood up and kept walking around my room rubbing temples then all of a sudden i collapsed on a corner i started crying, i can't breathe, as the time goes on i started to cry more, i wanna stop but i can't i tried calming myself it doesn't work, i tried to comfort myself it doesn't work.
i weakly grabbed my phone on the edge of my bed dialing johnny's number while shaking, im still crying, i don't wanna make him worried, he finally answered my call
"hey" he said happily
"j-johnny....... c-c-can yo-y-you c-come t-to m-my hou-house plea-please" i said stuttering and hardly can construct a proper sentence.
"are you okay, what happened to you, im coming stay on the line" he said i could feel he's on panic
"im s-sorry..... i..... i disturbed y-you" i said sniffing and still stuttering
"no no no it's okay, oh god what's happening why are you crying" he said and i heard the engine started
i was barely talking through the phone call i was just constantly sniffing and crying.
"kenzie open the door" the last thing i heard and slowly my vision got extremely blurry and i can't hear sounds clearly it's like muffled
S I D E N O T E :
anotha update boiis we got jenzie content yesterday even though insta was being a little bitch im still happy my heart got jumpy and my uwu boosts heheheheeh
