(Takano Masaume x Onodera Ritsu)Tell me you love me. Integral version

Chapter 8

Onodera p.o.v

I feel really better at the moment. So I decided to get out of the bed and cook something for Takano. To tell the truth I'm not very keen on cooking but I thought how difficult could it be? And this was mistake. I was completely wrong . En fact I didn't manage to cook anything. I guess I'd better buy something for lunch so I walk toward the fast food near our home.

When I come back I set the table and a few minutes later Takano - san walks in.

"Hi!"

" Hi"

He looks quite sad.

Something must be happend or maybe he doesn't want me in his home.

" Did you make this? " He asks me pointing the food

"No. I tried but I gave up on it. I'm very hopeless.

Anyway I bought it "

" Thanks " he says.

His voice is lower than ever.

He's making me worried.

" Anything happened at work? "

"Nothing special "

He is not looking at me.

Why the hell is he not looking at me? .

"Are you okay? "

He stares at me without saying a word.

" It's just...

Well I'm very tired and I need some time on my own "

He's cold. Too cold.

" Oh. Yeah. Right .

Sorry to troubled you. Don't you worry I'm leaving now. "

I try to seem indifferent .

" I just wanted to thank you for taking care of me yesterday "

He doesn't answer.

Time to go.

I keep telling myself.

Time to go.

When I reach home I feel lost.

My heart hurts a lot.

Not beacause of his cold behaviour but because of his expression. I've never seen an expression like the one he had today. His eyes were pale and empty.

Was that beacause of me?

Maybe he's still angry about what happened with An - chan. I should have explained him better.

Yes, I bet it's beacause of that.

Actually there is another possibility. Probably more likely.

But I'd rather refuse it.

He's just fed up with me.

I have to talk to him. If he doesn't want me anymore he must face me first.

I stop.

And what about me?

Am I ready to face him?

"We'll see that" I tell myself.

So I walk toward the Takano's flat.

And without any delay I knock on the door.

I knock on the door over and over and finally I hear his voice.

" Who's there? "

"Onodera "

" What's the matter? " Says he

"Could you let me in? I think we need to talk. "

" What about going out for a walk instead? "

He still looks depressed.

I nod.

We walk togheter until we reach a very familiar place.

And suddenly I notice it was the place where we went on the Takano's birthday. I blush as those memories catch up with me.

I remember it was snowing and I was enchanted to see that white skyline.

But I didn't realise what stunning red sunset was hidden in the show.

I am completely buried in the memory of that night.

I need to cacth my breath.

" Do you remember? "

" I do "

He pauses.

" You're dismissed. Now you're free to work with your father's company. "

I start laughing.

" It's a joke, isn't it? Very very funny "

But then I look into his eyes and I realise how serious he is .

"This is not a joke at all "

" Takano what is this about? What's going on so suddenly? "

" You're a literature editor. You know it! Then..."

" It's that so? B-but I thought. .."

Oh no I'm starting to stutter.

" You thought wrong! "

" And you deserve to do what you want to. You don't belong here "

" I do belong here "

" Really? Do you? Think about it! What there is here for you? "

" What the hell are you..."

But before I could finish the phrase I see him walking away.

Why? Why?

I can't let him go.

" Hey! Hey!!!!"

He doesn't stop.

I can't let him go.

" MASAMUNE! !!!!" I scream.

This is the first time I call out his name.

He turns around.

Certain glances aren't forgetten so easily. And this was one of them.

" You said you loved me " I tell him trying not to cry.

" I do. I love you enough to let you go " he answers.

I can't say anything.

My mouth is completely shouted.

I let him go.

I let him walk away and disappear again.