Miracle | Rochan

6. The past hurts

Chani P.O.V

Everything hurts so damn much, I feel like I'm going to explode. This is too much for me.
I got up from the floor and without even looking at Rowoon I left, I couldn't face him, not now, and not anytime sooner. I didn't even know where I'm going, I just walked straight.
Somehow I got at the river and sat down. The view was very beautiful, the sun was shining, the birds were singing and the wind was softly touching my face. Everything felt beautiful, everything but me.

*phone rings*

"Hey, Chani where are you?? What happened?" - Youngkyun said with worry

"Hyung, should I die? Should I throw myself in the river?" - I said something that even I myself didn't expect

"Chani for the god's sake, what are you saying?! Tell me where are you! I'm coming right now!"

"Hyung, it's oka-"

"You're talking about suicide and you're that's okay? Tell me where are you right now Chani!"

"Fine! Han River. Is it okay no-" - he hung up on me

Ahh this hyung... Well, it's my fault anyway, only if I didn't say anything about throwing myself in the river and dying... I don't even know where that come from. I never was a person who would consider suicide. I mean I hate it, I hated dying. More like, I was scared from it. But I guess everyone at least once in their lifetime gets thoughts about suicide. In this world everyone has troubles and worries, life is not easy.... Living is just too hard... I thought about these things when someone called out for me.

"Chani! You fool! You better tell me what happened or I will kill you with my bare hands!" - It was Youngkyun

"H-hyung"

"Speak!" - he said as he was sitting down next to me - "What happened at Rowoon's house?"

"Hyung, he, he.... He's Seokwoo's twin brother" - I said as I started crying, I always hated myself being weak, but now, I just couldn't hold back my tears

"T-twin? Seokwoo's twin?" - he said surprised

"Apparently, yes...."

"H-how?"

"I'll tell you, hyung"

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I told him everything while crying. Youngkyun still couldn't believe it, and I totally understand, it's still impossible for me too. He hugged me tightly and stroked my hair. Now that I've told Youngkyun i feel better, but it still hurts.

"Hyung, I really don't know what to do. Now that I know the true how am I going to continue living, I shouldn't have asked about it. My heart hurts too much, it's totally broken."

"Chani, you'll get over it, you just need time. One day you'll be fine, you will heal Chani. You won't stay like this forever, believe me." - Youngkyun comforted me

"And when will be that? When I die?"

"No, Chani. You're thinking that now, but one day you will surprise yourself as well."

"Really hyung? Am I going to be able to overcome it hyung?"

"Of course! One day everything will pass, time flies too quickly, you won't even notice."

"I'll trust you then, hyung."

"Trust me, Chani. I'll be always be here for you. Whatever you are going through..."
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I finally updated after 2 days. I don't know where this story is going to... But I'll try my best!!! Also, thank you a lot for the support!!!🤧💖💖