One Last Time {Josh Ramsay Fan Fiction}

Chapter 20

It's been about 9 days now. I've only been back in the Couve for about a week. I really really, want to tell Josh, but at the same time I don't. I'm so afraid. No one knows about this. I feel like such a failure. I can't believe I resorted to that I mean, for God sakes, I could've done something better. Like walking or writing...

That's it!

I'll write, so then all of my feelings or whatever, won't be a secret. Then I can show Josh, and maybe he won't be mad at me. I don't know what to do. I feel so horrible for keeping this a secret for so long. But, I guess that's what happens when your home alone all the time.

But, I'm afraid of how he'll react. I mean, what if he yells at me? I don't like the angry side of Josh. He has a really loud voice and it can be pretty intimidating since he's like 6'2. I'm only 5'9, so it can scare me a little when he yells.

"Jessebelle? Are you here?" Well Josh is here. But I can't really tell him anything quite yet, since I haven't written anything. I'll have to write something tonight to show him tomorrow.

"Yeah I'm in the living room!" I shout. I hear him walking closer to me. I turn around and see his signature smile right in front of my face. I smile back.

"Well hellooo." I say.

"Bonjour Mon Chere." Him and his French.

"I would say something back to you in French buuuttt... I don't feel like it." He laughs and sits down beside me.

"So, whatcha doing?" He says empathizing the 'so'.

"Ah not too much. Just thinking about music and such." He smiles.

"Music is great."

"Indeed it is... So what's up?" Is it just me, or is this really awkward?

"Well, my mom and dad keep checking up on me constantly. I wrote some new songs. Uhm, I had a nap." I laugh.

"Naps are pretty great."

"Yes. Yes they are."

"I once had a 16 hour nap." His mouth drops open.

"What are you, a cat?" I laugh.

"Well I stayed up for 24 hours and I only got 2 hours of sleep. Later that day I had a 16 hour nap. I went to bed at 3 pm and woke up at 7 am."

"Damn."

"Yeah whoops." I say while laughing. He shakes his head and laughs.

"Wanna do something today?"

"Like what?" I ask, while smiling.

"We coouuld, go to the park?" He suggests. I nod.

"That'd be fun!" He smiles.

"Well you might wanna go get dressed my love. Unless of course, you wanna go to the park half naked. Of course, I wouldn't mind." He says while winking. I roll my eyes.

"You're so sexual Ramsay." He laughs.

"A little." I smile and grab clothes to change into.

A few minutes later, I come out in a baggy AC/DC tank top, black yoga shorts and my black and white Converse. Josh smiles at me.

"AC/DC and Converse. Nice." I curtsey.

"Only for you." He laughs as we begin to walk outside. When he opens the door, I hiss.

"Sunlight!" He laughs.

"Yes I know sunlight hurts for our vampirish kind."

"You get me dude." I say while pretending to wipe a tear away. He rolls his eyes and puts his arm around my shoulders.

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When we get to the park, I immediately sit under this huge oak tree. I close my eyes and lean back against the trunk.

"You get comfy quick. I didn't even introduce you two."

"It's okay, we've acquainted ourselves." Josh laughs and sits beside me. I look over at him.

"Why are you smiling?"

"I can't smile?" I laugh.

"No no. I meant what are you smiling about?"

"I was smiling because, I was looking at you." I blush. "You're very beautiful Jesse. You're perfect."

"Josh I'm so far from perfect." He shakes his head.

"No Jesse. Trust me. You are so perfect. You're beautiful, funny, weird, amazing, wonderful, lovely and awesome. You, my darling, are the most perfect human being on this Earth. You've helped me through all the shit I decided to do. You've made me happy, on my bad days. You've kept me from leaving. You've always been there for me, even if I was being an ass to you. You honestly, don't even realize how much you've helped me. Without you, I would probably be dead." Tears escape from my eyes. His words run through over and over in my head. "But, I'm not. And I owe it all to you. You've truly saved me, my darling. Just by talking to me, you always make me so much happier. You are perfect Jesse."

"I-I don't even know what to say..." I say, while tears rush down my face. He pulls me onto his lap and lifts my chin up.

"You don't have to say anything darling. I just thought you should know how much, you really and truly mean to me." I smile as more tears fall from my eyes and onto his shirt. He slightly laughs and wipes the tears away from my eyes with his thumb.

"Thank you. For everything. For being you." I whisper. He smiles. I smirk. "I've missed you lover boy." He laughs.

"I've missed you too Lover Dearest." He kisses me gently. He pulls away and rests his forehead on mine. "Now how about we go get some food? I'm pretty hungry." I laugh and nod.

"I'm hungry too." I say smiling. 'Hungry'. Least favorite word in the whole God damn dictionary.

I stand up and he gets up as well. He smiles at me and takes my hand as we begin to walk down the sidewalk. I look back at the tree. That's my new favorite place.

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Well hellloooo.

I haven't updated in like 1 month. Whoops.

I've been so so busy with school and homework, and when I haven't had homework every day of the week, I've been working on my art. Because in art class we have to do weekly drawings, and I have like 8/9 done. They're so annoying to do sometimes bc I don't think she realizes how much homework we legit have haha.

But anyways...

1K READS!!!!!!!!!!!

WELL SHIT!

Last time I updated (September 19th or 20th I think) it was at like 300-400 reads. Holy Jesus damn. Thank you guys! That is a lot of reads. I didn't even think this would get 200 reads, never mind 1,000. I just checked my account this morning and saw that. I admit, I gasped and choked.

Now I know this chapter isn't that long or very good, but I thought I should update. And hey I updated Wattpad on my phone and now I can put pictures!!! Expect pictures or videos now hahaha.

Now, I've had some recent inspiration. And I thought you should all know that there will for sure be a second book to One Last Time. I know we're not too far into the story, but I have ideas for the future. And they're pretty good. So just thought you should know:)

Now, I would like to know how you're all doing and if you're enjoying this book because it's been a MONTH.

Comment/vote please! :)

You guys are literally all so rad. Thanks for reading my somewhat okay book(: