One Last Time {Josh Ramsay Fan Fiction}

Chapter 25

"You thought I actually loved you?" Josh asks, while laughing. Tears escape from my eyes.

"Y-yeah..." He laughs.

"Well I didn't!" Just then Kira walks in. She hugs Josh and he kisses her.

"No one loves you Jessa. No one ever did, and no one ever will." Kira states. I nod slightly.

"I know..." They both begin to laugh at me.

They're right. No one loves me. No one ever will love me. I don't love me. I hate myself. I can't do anything right. I'm a piece of shit. I'm always so depressed, I used to smile because of Josh. But now, I don't have any reason to smile anymore. Josh is gone. I feel like my heart has been ripped out and stomped on. I loved him so much, and now I don't know what to do.

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"Jessa... Jessa... Jessa!!!" I shoot up. I look down at myself. I'm shaking and there are tear stains on my face. "Jessa? Are you okay?" I turn to see Mason, looking at me with nothing but worry on his face. I nod.

"Yeah I am. I just had a bad dream." He nods.

"I have to go to Heidi's for a while. Will you be okay?" I nod. He smiles and walks out of my room. I grab my phone.

"Hello?" He says, with a sleepy voice.

"Hi."

"Hey Jess. What's up?"

"I was just wondering, do you want to hang out today?"

"Yeah sure!"

"Great! See you later Matt." I hang up. I put my face in my hands. That dream really fucked me up. I get up and head towards my closet. I grab my Converse sweater, some ripped skinny jeans, my purple Converse, and some bracelets. I turn on my straightener and do my regular routine for make up. I'm glad I don't have very many classes anymore. I finished all the classes I needed to, in order to graduate, so I just have gym class every other day. Same with Jayden. I straighten my hair and put on my clothes. I look at my dresser, I look at the necklace Josh gave me. I hesitate to put it on. I'm just paranoid.

I shake my head, making the thoughts go away. It's not very cold, so I don't need my coat. I walk downstairs, and wait for Matt by watching TV.

About 15 minutes later, there's a knock at the door. I get up and head towards the front door. I open it.

"Hellooo."

"Hey Matt!" He smiles.

"Ready to go?" I nod, and close the door behind me.

"We haven't had a Matt-And-Jessa's-Super-Fucking-Amazing-Fun-Day in forever." He states. I laugh and get into his car.

"I know! I miss my best friend!" He laughs.

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"You're just mad because I beat you at PacMan!"

"You cheated!" He whines.

"How can you even cheat at PacMan smart one?!"

"....Touché." I laugh. "Come on, let's get something to eat Champ." I nod and we head into the mall's cafeteria. My phone buzzes. I look at it, and put it back in my pocket. Not now. "Whose that?"

"Hm?"

"Who just texted you? Josh?" I swallow hard.

"Uh no. Just, Mase. He was wondering where I was."