Chapter 7
PAUL’S POV
John’s taking care of me. I appreciate that. I’m very happy because he loves me back, I didn’t expect this. He’s really wonderful when he loves someone, he’s being very nice to me. Now I trust him and I feel like he’s my entire world. I can’t imagine me without him, I’d be empty and senseless.
Now he’s looking at me with his brown, beautiful eyes. I’m drinking tea. His love and his tea are all I need after a nightmare like that.
“Do you want anything, Paul?” he asks with his sooth voice. I shake my head.
“I think I’ll take a shower.”
“That sounds good. I’ll prepare dinner.”
JOHN’S POV
I’m making dinner. I decide that a soup will calm the both of us well, so I prepare the ingredients.
“JOHN! JOHN, HELP, PLEASE, JOHN!”
I let go the glass that I’ve got in my hands, and it falls to the ground and crashes, but I don’t mind. I run to the bath to find Paul naked on the floor, sobbing and shivering.
“Paul, Paul, what happened?”
“He-he’s here! John he wants to rape me again! He’s here!”
“Paul, there’s nobody here and you know it. Come on, mate.”
“No, no, John…”
I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to help him. He’s crazy, we know it. That man is still scaring him in his head, so he has moments like this.
“John, please…”
I do the only thing I can think about. I press my lips on his and roughly kiss him. I know he doesn’t want it, but this is the only thing that could take him back here. At first he fights it, but then he relaxes and actually kisses back. His shaking slowly stops, and with this he realizes what had just happened.
“Oh John… I-I’m sorry!”
“No. don’t be. It’s all right, Paulie, it’s all right.”
“Sorry I had this terrible vision, I saw him here and… I don’t want to be a burden for you!”
“Paul, you know you won’t EVER be a burden for me. I love you. Come with me.”
We get up from the bathroom floor and he dresses up. We go in the kitchen. There I turn off the fire and clean the mess. He just stays sitting at the table. Sometimes he lets out a little sob. I give him his soup.
“Eat something before going to bed, luv.”
He eats it in complete silence.
“Paul… sorry if I kissed you earlier.”
“No problem John, thanks, that kiss brought me back from that hell. And, actually, I enjoyed it.”
“…so?”
“SO what?”
“What about another one?”
He smiles. I take as a yes and pull him closer to me.
“Well, I think that this is the first step for a normal life.”
“Thank you, Johnny.”
“C’mon let’s go to bed.” I see the worried look he gives me.
“Yeah, don’t worry you’ll sleep with me.”
He nods, we walk over to my bed. Here we cuddle a little and it’s wonderful.
“You know I’ll have nightmares, don’t you?”
“Don’t worry. I’ll be here.”
And with that we get asleep.
