Chapter 6
JOHN’S POV
Paul is in my house. He’s been in the hospital for five days, but yesterday he woke up, so they let him go. He’s staying at mine’s because he needs someone who can take him back from hell. He has a lot of nightmares and doesn’t want too many people around him. He’s very scared by that man, although he got arrested.
It’s 5p.m. Out it’s raining, and he’s sleeping. He’s so beautiful, even if there are a lot of bruises and little cuts on his face. I want to kill that man. Nobody can do this to my Paulie.
He screams in his dream. I run to him.
“Paul, Paulie, wake up love.”
I shake him. He wakes up and starts to sob.
“Sssh, it’s all right, love. It was just a dream.”
I gently hug him and rub his back, and slowly he calms down.
“Sssh, he’s away now. He’s not coming back, I promise. I’m here, Paulie.”
“John… I love you. Not just as a friend… as a lover. I’ve loved you since I’ve known you. I didn’t want to tell you because I was afraid that you could hate me for being queer. But now… now I feel like I can’t keep this secret anymore, because it would kill me. It’s burning me from inside. Please, don’t hate me for that, please…”
I hug him.
“I could never hate you Paul. Well, in fact, I love you too. As a lover. I always had, and I always will. Forever.”
He definitely breaks down, crying into my short. I feel very happy. My Paul is mine, now. He’s my… my what? My lover? My boyfriend?
No. My Paul sounds much better.
I kiss the top of his head.
“S-Sorry John if I cry so much…”
“Cry as much as you want to. There’s no problem, and you know that. I love you.”
He nods.
“But… you know… I want to wait. For kissing and… and the rest. I’m scared and… I think I’d relive the past, and I don’t want to. Please…”
“Don’t worry. We’ll take it slow. We’ve got time, we can wait as you want to. You’re my love, you know that, mmh?”
He nods.
“Good. Now come with me in the kitchen, I’ve made tea.”
