MAYBE I AM now, but I never thought I'd be. I've heard people talking about it but in all reality I had never gone through it myself. Now that I have, I could say I never truly understood.
My life was hard enough as it was, I didn't need any of this to make matters worse. What can I do about it now?
Sadly, nothing. I have to sit here and watch my life crumble before my eyes. More than part of me is gone, ripped away and I am left with nothing. I'm numb and feel completely and utterly empty inside.
I don't want to yet, I have no other choice than to leave it all behind. I must forget all that I have ever known, erase my most precious memories from my mind, my sub-conscience and pretend they never existed.
I can not help and ask myself why I tried so hard? Why I gave so much of myself and the only answer I can come up with is that I was a naive little girl, just as he had said. This was meant to be forever, for eternity but how could I have known if everything indicated otherwise?
I suppose I took a chance but I shouldn't have. If I had not in the first place, I wouldn't be here with such grief, such despair, pain and fear.
Fear of the truth. Fear of the unknown. As if I was walking into an unfamiliar, darkened room.
I can't think straight anymore. Blips of my memory are beginning to fade and others are morphing into one. They are distorting my reality and truth.
Am I going mad or am I confused?
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Falling Into Oblivion
Teen FictionWhen Cassie's asked by her long-time boyfriend Arsen to go to his families cabin for the weekend, she's over the moon to finally spend time with him alone but nothing in life is that simple. Nothing is as it seems and the fallout is horrific when th...
