MY DAD CONTINUED rambling, on how terrible the outside world really is while I kept shaking my head continually in a daze to keep my tears at bay. Little did my father know, I am the danger. I so badly wanted to tell him what happened this weekend. I know he would have been upset. Hell, maybe even worse but I know my dad would do anything in his power to help and protect me. However, Arsen keeps creeping up in my mind, reminding me how he would snap if he knew I told someone, anyone.
Keeping this in mind, I let my dad finish and drag my body up the stairs to my bedroom like there is cement blocks moulded to each foot. Each word he spoke was a painful reminder that I have caused heartache, not only to myself but to Erin Mills poor family. I can not shake the feeling that I've really messed up.
My dad looks so highly of me, it makes me feel worse than I ever thought I could feel.
I keep thinking we shouldn't have gone back yesterday. We still had a chance to redeem ourselves but we chose poorly. Now we're stuck with the decision we've made and unfortunately, we have to lie in the bed we've made.
I look out my bay window and see the snow forming into droplets of rain. The snow is melting and turning into mucky slush, leaving nothing to be desired by the eyes. It's highly unusual for this time of year. But somehow I feel like the universe is mimicking my somber mood. On the positive side of things, it won't take much for me to fall asleep to the rhythm of the rain drops tap and dance on the roof top and it's much needed. I'm beyond exhausted and drained from my roller coaster of emotions along with,y lack of sleep in the last few forty-eight hours.
I pull off my socks and plop myself on my air filled, duck feathered duvet but it does t last long when I hear my phone buzzing, notifying me I got a text message from Cora. "Arsens lending me the truck tomorrow morning so be ready by eight. I will come pick you up for school."
"Is he lending you the truck or are you borrowing it?" I text back.
"Same thing. I have an appointment in the afternoon so he has no choice." She boasts.
I'm thankful when I roll my eyes and she can't see it. I turn over to my side, squish my face against my pillow and let out a deep shallow breath. Sometimes it's hard being friends with your boyfriends sister. Whatever Cora does to irritate Arsen, I hear about it from him and whatever he does to Cora, I get an ear full. I'm always stuck in the middle, trying to please both sides. It's not easy.
I prop myself up with my arms and text back. "I'll be ready."
IT'S THE morning and I feel groggy but I am optimistic after taking a shower, feeling the hot water cascade down my body and washing away the stress I've held onto the last few days. As I watch my days worth of dirt go down the drain in a mesmerizing spiral, I think back to Kaelem. I'm taken aback to the way I feel about him. He is nothing I have ever found myself being attracted to. So much so that I am trying to erase his face from mind. Embarrassed to admit how appealing I find him. I guess it's true when they opposites attract. They usually mean personality wise. However between Kaelem and I, our appearance are nothing alike. I've got black, shoulder length hair, dark features, upturned forest green eyes, olive skin and barely five foot two. While Kaelem's hair, and though it's bleached, is naturally dirty blond, blue hooded eyes, ivory skin and about six foot four. I noticed his head nearly hitting a hanging exit sign at school when he walked off.
I hope to see him again soon but as friends of course. Nothing more. Just because I find him handsome doesn't mean I want to leave Arsen for him. I'm very much in love with Arsen. Besides, he's the last thing I should be thinking about right now...
I'M OUTSIDE AND patiently wait for Cora to arrive. After listening to her obnoxiously beep the horn unnecessarily while standing directly in front of her bumper, I jump in and playfully smack her in the arm for being so annoying. "Oh. My. Gosh. You will not believe the hot guy I just saw, dropping Arsen off at work. He's like, the hottest guy I've ever seen..."
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Falling Into Oblivion
Teen FictionWhen Cassie's asked by her long-time boyfriend Arsen to go to his families cabin for the weekend, she's over the moon to finally spend time with him alone but nothing in life is that simple. Nothing is as it seems and the fallout is horrific when th...