Baby Yesung

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Today after Yesung took few bites of his hospital lunch his papa and umma announced that he is finally going home. Yesung let them diaper and dress him and then they get in an elevator. Siwon is holding bag with his things and Heechul has a protective arm wrapped around Yesung's shoulders. When they get to their car Yesung sat down on the regular seat and not in his special seat. Siwon and Heechul decided to ignore it because they need to slowly coat him back in his little space. They arrived home and Yesung flinched when Bugsy ran to him with happy barking. The dog only wanted to greet his little friend but Siwon sent him away because he is obviously scaring Yesung.

Both Heechul and Siwon don't know what would Yesung like to do so they turned on some cartoons for him. Yesung watches it only for few seconds and then changed the channel on some documentary. Heechul is nervously gnawing on his lower lip and glances on Siwon.

"Maybe we can go outside, the weather is so warm and nice."

Siwon nodded because they can swim or just sit and eat something. They both look on Yesung who only shrugged and then wordlessly got up and went on the terrace. Yesung sat down and Heechul goes to get some snack because maybe that Yesung would like to eat now. He brings box of Pororo biscuits and handed it to Yesung. Heechul fights with tears when Yesung lifted his pale exhausted face up to him. Yesung takes the box from him but doesn't open it and only lay it in his lap. Heechul sat down on chair next to him and watches the green trees in front of them slightly moving because of the summer breeze. Bugsy is running around and barks on few birds who landed in the grass. Everything is calm but Heechul feels like in middle of a war. He doesn't want to move because then he could take a bad step and cause some disaster.

Yesung is too tense and anxious so even the tinniest bit more could bring a meltdown. Siwon and Heechul are trying to not stare on him and better focus on water in their swimming pool.

"Do you want to swim?"

Siwon leaned closer to Yesung and smiled. His smile died after Yesung shakes his head no but Siwon goes to change into swimming suit because then maybe Yesung will join him.

Yesung is staring on the green grass and Heechul next to him is bitting his nails. Siwon gave up after he spent almost two hours in the swimming pool because Yesung isn't going to join him. He goes to take a shower and then realized that Yesung is silently following him. Siwon smiles because maybe that he is going to cuddle but Yesung only takes a fresh diaper and goes to change himself. Siwon took a shower and then goes downstairs where is Heechul serving dinner. They are silently eating and Yesung is full again after taking few bites. Then he goes upstairs in their bedroom. Yesung doesn't even look in his nursery and lie down in Siwon's and Heechul's bed who are washing the dishes. After a while they go in the bedroom too and Siwon laid down next to Yesung and Heechul goes to take a shower.

They are silently lying in the dark bedroom and Siwon pulled out the beloved stuffed turtle.

"Yesung, look who is here."

He shows the turtle to Yesung who turned his head away. Siwon thought that maybe he could be able to slip into little space here because the hospital was stressful for him. Now it is clear that Yesung isn't going to be little anytime soon.

Heechul came and sees the stuffie lying alone. He got in the bed too and they are sandwiching Yesung between them. Heechul put the turtle on Yesung's chest and kissed his cheek. The only sound is their calm breathing and from time to time Heebum who is downstairs. Heechul is asleep and Siwon is almost asleep too, only Yesung can't sleep. After a while of staring on dark ceiling he slowly crawled out of their bed. He roams around the house for a while and then sat down on carpet in the living room.

Yesung slowly starts to rock back and forth on his heels and hides his face between his knees. Little space was his escape and now he is forced to be big. He doesn't want this, he can't be big. Everything is crushing him and wants to hide in Siwon's arms but some voice inside him is yelling no. Yesung opened his mouth in silent scream and locked his eyes with Heebum who is watching him.

Siwon upstairs panicked when he doesn't feel Yesung next to him and quickly got up. He is walking around the dark house and his heart is beating fast in fear that maybe Yesung has run away. He sighed when he found him in living room and cleared his throat to show that he is there. Then Siwon slowly goes to him and kneeled down next to Yesung.

"Please, you need to sleep or you are going to get seriously hurt."

Yesung shakes his head no and pressed his face back in between his knees.

"I know that terrible things happened but now you are here with us and that terrible place is gone."

Siwon is waiting for some response but Yesung keeps silent.

"You know that you can be little, the people who hurt you were sick fuckers and they are in prison now."

After few minutes of silence Siwon hears that Yesung is mumbling something. He leaned closer to him until his ear is almost touching Yesung's head and finally hears it clearly.

"I deserved it."

Yesung's bony chest is shaking in sobs and Siwon quickly hugs him.

"From where did you take something so stupid? It definitely wasn't your fault, the problem is that some people are forcing their opinions to everyone."

Yesung shakes his head no again and looked up on Siwon.

"I wanted to go out with them. I was selfish and wasn't satisfied with you and Heechul, I wanted my parents to love me."

Siwon kissed his forehead and wipes Yesung's tears with his thumbs.

"Your parents don't see the cute baby hidden in you. You are their son, it is normal that you want them to love you but if they refuse your love then don't care about them. They don't deserve you and no one can love you as much as we do."

Siwon gently grabs Yesung's chin and holds his head up.

"We both know that you need to be little so please, just slip and be as tiny as you want."

Yesung harshly wiped his tears with his small hands and sobs few times.

"No! Someone will see me and then they will send me back on that place."

Siwon brings him close to his chest and wrapped his arms around him while stroking his back. Meanwhile Heechul woke up and saw the empty bed so he went to find them. He doesn't want to disturb their moment in the living room and only watches them. Siwon heard his steps and turned to him.

"I have an idea! Heechul, come here."

Heechul hesitantly goes closer and kneels down next to them.

"Lets hug together."

Heechul hugs Siwon and Yesung is enveloped by their warm bodies.

"Now no one can see you and you can be little."

Yesung sniffled few more times but then calmed down. They are right, in everything.

His parents were never showing him love. They were too busy to notice him and Yesung was studying hard to make them proud. He didn't want to study at university, he wanted to be a singer but his mother yelled on him until he started to cry and promised that he will finish his studies. Yesung doesn't know what is so bad on being little, he just needs it and it isn't hurting other people. Siwon was right, no one can love him more than his umma and papa.

Yesung closed his eyes and focuses on the nice smell and warmness around him. The voice inside him is now silent and Yesung feels the very well known feeling in his head. Everything is getting fluffier and bad thoughts are pushed away. Yesung slipped in his comfy little space and wriggled in the tight hug.

"Papa!"

Siwon and Heechul are almost crying in relief because Yesung is back in safety of his little space and now he can be happy again. Yesung snuggles in crook of Heechul's neck and kissed cheek of his umma. They are hugging for a while before Heechul whimpered.

"I don't want to ruin this moment but my knees are yelling to stop kneeling like this."