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《°🎈°》 K A Y C O O K
"What are you talking about?" I asked, looking at Zach.
"How do you know that?" Daniel questioned, bewildered.
"I can see it all over this asshole's face." Zach said, not even looking Corbyn's way.
"Corbyn, is this true?" I questioned.
Corbyn only nodded not having the heart to speak.
"Oh." Is all I said, no energy left in me.
I felt the tear roll down my face and I took a deep breath, wiping it away furiously. He didn't deserve to see me cry.
"Kay I'm so-" Corbyn started but I held a hand to his face.
"You don't get to talk!" I shouted. "You don't get to lie to me and tell me you're sorry."
"Come on, Doll. Let's go." Zach said, putting an arm around me as we walked past them.
'Thank you for breaking me.' Isn't that a line from Sinead O'Connor? I never understood it before. It used to sound like permission, albeit retroactive, to hurt someone. I get it now.
Only a lover can wound so deep, cut to the core. That level of trauma has to be an inside job. He broke me.
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I had decided that during my lunch period I would sit with Zach and his friends since I had no one else to talk to. Corbyn's friends were my friends.
Jonah was extremely cocky but tried his hardest to make me laugh. No wonder Tate likes him so much.
Jack was quiet. He never talked, not once. He hasn't even looked my way the whole time.
Harper was sweet. A total change of the girl I'd met at the beginning of the term. Which she profusely apologised about.
Zach was still a douche but I knew deep down he cared.
And Christina? She was nowhere to be seen.
"Kay, you need to eat something." Zach frowned, offering me his burger.
I shook my head and declined his offer. "I'm not hungry."
"Well maybe you should try and sleep." He suggested.
I shook my head. "I'm not tired."
My heartbreak is grief that comes in waves, gruelling, stealing appetite and sleep alike. It is a shard in my guts that will never leave, though perhaps in time the edges will dull.
It feels like death, just the same as bereavement and in quiet moments it chokes the breath from my body and short circuits my mind.
This heartbreak is unexpected, as they always are - on top of the world one minute, cut down the next. Why is that?
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a/n if anyonehas any ideas forthistell me cause idk whereI'm going with this
