Sana (Completed)

My cat

You are allowed to skip this if you don't want my drama :'(

July 4, 2019

The day we lost you, our beloved cat. Mingkay. I am so honored to be one of your owner. We love you very much. I have to do the Chapter 21 of my book but as I write it. The more heart break I feel because the night I am starting to write it is our last night with you. I can't handle myself. I can't hold it.

Now, I am writing this. This is the first night without you, our love. We lost you but you always remain. The meow we hear when we just touch you, when we enter the room, when we leave and when we hold you.

I miss your bossy meow, your so pity meow, angry meow, hungry meow and many more. We really regret that we brought you to the vet and learn that we had one of our biggest mistake, not bringing you early.

We should have brought you there instead of wasting our money for goddamned things and wasting our time instead of spending it with you and other cats.

I am now laying at the bed. Without you at my side. Without you being so demanding for new food because your food was given an hour ago. Without you being so careless to spill the water. Without you pooping in the middle of the night. Without you shouting at our ears as if your cursing me. Without you...

Our First Met

When my sister went to her favorite tea shop, she passed by you. Crying and shouting at her. She pity you cause your not with your mom in the side of the road.

She brought you home with a sad face because she think you'll die with cold or children will play with you or cars will bump you outside.

We tried to search for your mom in the middle of the night and find nothing. So, we brought you home put you in the side because our cats are angry with you.

But here is Sugar. Approached you. She took care of you. She treat you like her little sister but her own sisters doesn't like you.

Until days after and weeks and months. They are used to be with you. They play with you even through they aren't kittens like you.

They play with you, they love you, they care about you and now they miss you.

You were so jolly. You always want to play. You always want to jump around. You always want attention.

We gave everyone with fair attention but we didn't actually.

Sugar got sick. She got somethings in her head that starts to grow much more. So we separate her from all of you, even you Mingkay.

You were not that sad about it because you are also close now with the other cats. You were...

Last week with you

You start to get hotter. Your body temperature isn't right. You don't eat a lot. Not just like you used to. You hide much more than you used to. You don't play anymore.

You just hide and hide. Then we realize, something is really up to you.

We have been busy with other things and always forget about you bringing to the nearest vet which is, hundred kilometers away.

Then when I arrive from school with a body ache. My sister went home with her friends and you. She said you are sick with this virus that could kill you.

And because it is from the other county. The medicine is not available here in the Philippines. That made myself break. Really?

Until the day after, your acting weird. And we were crying so loud because we know. We are losing you and hours after... we really lost you.

My heart break down to pieces. In your 9 months staying with us. You are precious. We love you. We always do. You may not read this but I just want to share it with myself and others.

This is a heartbreak that not easily to move on with cause it is not coming back or no more second chances to be given or to take.

I just want to tell you that I love you, we love you. Forever~♥