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Chapter 8 •Out?•

I S A B E L  B E A T R I Z

I never thought four months would go as swiftly as it did. A lot has changed and it's surely for the better. Jho and I have never been closer. It's as if there would be no Beatriz without a Jhoana and vice versa. Honestly, I'm all on board with this idea. I'm sure I wouldn't have improved this much if it weren't for Jho.

And speaking of improvements, my feelings for her surely did so. It never occurred to me that being with her everyday would lead to the development of our relationship. Stupid, I know. I was just too focused on befriending her at first then letting fate decide what will happen next. It was only supposed to be a little crush. I thought maybe it'll just go away once I get to be friends with her. That's what usually happens, right?

Well in my case, wrong.

I have never been so crazy about a person and there's nothing I could do about it. I could risk everything and ask her out. But I'm too scared of the outcome. I mean, we're both girls and still in high school for crying out loud!

It's only Saturday morning and this is what bothers me. Good thing we'll have our sem break after two weeks.

"Mom, would we go somewhere this upcoming break?"

"Depends upon your Dad's schedule. It'll be nice to go away for a whole weekend. I know you and Loel were quite busy these past few months so you deserve a break."

"Thanks Mom!"

"And if ever the circumstances allow, you should invite Jho. I still wanna know her."

"Speaking of Jho. Uhm..." There was this voice I keep hearing saying I should just say never mind. But this has been pestering me for too long, enough to affect my academics and sleeping pattern.

Could this be the right time? Should I just wait until everybody's around so I don't have to tell it again?

"Beatriz." Mom snapped be back to reality.

"Never mind. I think it can wait until the family's complete."

"Whatever you think is best. Just know that you can always talk to me."

"I know Mom. I'll go back to my room and catch up some lessons."

Complete lie. I couldn't focus. The page hasn't even been flipped. All I can remember is Chapter 14. I couldn't even recall the topic I am studying, not even the subject.

The sun has rose to its peak which signaled lunch time. Dad and Kuya will be back from playing golf. It also means the four of us will be present. Am I even ready? Is it better to talk about it on the dining table or could it wait at least until after?

As soon as I heard the car backing up the garage, I closed the book that I was reading and went down to greet them. They entered laughing about something that happened earlier on the golf course.

"Bea, you should have come! Your Kuya and I had so much fun."

"I kinda studied so..." I shrugged.