It's Not Gonna Fade

Chapter 29

Marie's position

          I continued with Chemo for the time being. I was putting myself in God's hands. I honestly was. I prayed everyday again. I hadn't since I was admitted, but I got back to it. And I started the three text challenge. For every three texts I receive and read, I read a bible verse. I started in Romans. And it has been going very well. I also found a new podcast mostly about apologetics. Which is defending the faith. The podcast usually has these christian theologians debating with a person of another religion. My favorite one so far is the one where they had a Jehovahs Witness  guy on there. 

          I grew up in a town with a Jehovahs Witness church but I never really knew what their religion believed. The podcast was very interesting to listen to while I was in my hour and half MRI. I also found a church that does a livestream of their service on Sundays. I watch it while I get my morning treatment usually. I was in a much better attitude now. Vanessa got me a Christian counselor from here in town and our once a week sessions made me feel amazing. 

         Lindsey keeps coming by every now and then, but with the spring classes starting she has been so busy. I of course completely understand. I was still a student at Baylor, but I wasn't signed up for any classes due to the cancer. I had talked to the administration about it when I first got diagnosed. They said they would keep my enrollment for as long as I needed. Baylor was so truly amazing for sticking with me through this entire situation. 

          My counselor wrapped up our daily session and Phil walked in with a smile on his face. "Well well well, by that face Phil I might as well be cured." I joked. "Well you're not but I have some very very good news." He responded. "Oh?" I asked intrigued. "The tumors have shrunk significantly. At this rate, we should be able to do the surgery within 6 months instead of the 12 to 24 we were looking at." He said. My eyes widened. "This is huge!" I exclaimed. 

           Vanessa walked in right as I said that. "What's huge?" She asked. "Vanessa, I just informed Marie that the tumors have shrunk and at the rate they are shrinking we should be able to do the surgery within about 6 months instead of a year or two." He explained again. "Oh my God, this IS huge!" She said. "Marie I'm so happy for you." She added as she walked over and wrapped me up into a hug. "Marie, we aren't gonna lighten up at all. So keep your attitude how it has been the past few weeks and you will see the inside of an OR very, very soon." Phil said before he walked out. As soon as everything in my room settled, I looked up to the sky and said "God, thank you. This is one of the best gifts you could have ever given me."