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tOM HOLLAND (aka the loml)

okay so in case you didnt know by now, i love tom holland. with all my heart. 

I don't think i've stanned anyone this hard before, you know? Like i actually think about how awesome it would be to be friends with him and his family and harrison and tuwaine. not even because theyre famous. but they genuinely seem like good people. and their group is so tight. Like if i went to school with them, i would want to be friends with them. and theyre all kinda nerds too. (i know a lot of people say this type of stuff lol) and just the stability in their friend group is awesome, i would love to have that. when I stanned other people I never actually thought about this before. and if i did I knew 100% that it wouldn't come true. That it just wasn't gonna happen, so i didn't even bother wishing for it. But now, now im like 'bro i wish that could've happened and I would love for that to happen'. and i actually think about how awesome it would be to be friends with him. like i actually think about that type of stuff. and it scares me cause i know its never going to happen. Like i'm probably never even going to meet him. But I still think about it and like, how to get it? 

Okay I'm going to pause right here because i feel like i may be coming off as weird because I'm not, at least i hope. if i am, please tell me. im just a normal person. i swear im not trying to come off as weird. and I could probably find a better way to phrase this whole thing but im tired so i cant right now, lol. But im just a typical fan girl.

gosh that paragraph is even weirder.

okay im just going to continue and just speak my mind and hope to whatever is up there you don't judge me :).

I want to be in his life. I would love to make him happy. 

frick, i sound like a stalker. Like that girl from icarly that just wont. go. away. But i kinda need to get these thoughts out. if i don't, i may tell someone in actual real lifeand that would be super awkward. and hopefully after typing this i will find a way to word it to make it seem not so stalkerish.

I just. I want to know him. ya know? please tell me if you don;t know. if i ever ask this. please tell me so im not the only one. and if i am the only one, so i can know. I want to play board games with him and just have fun. I want to play tennis and golf and whatever the heck else he does. I just want to get to know him. ya know? and he just seems like an awesome person. He just seems so nice and sweet and caring. I want to get to know the real him ew so cheesy. and i may be wrong, but a girl can dream, right? 

and who knows, it may just be the desperate for love person in me talking. and it may be the fact that there isn't that big of an age gap. I know more than like three years is rare, but at least its not 21 like monica and richard (ive been watching friends). All i'm going to say is that its under ten. 

xxxx

okay for the second part of my essay.........

i will be talking about how famous people are treated like sh*it. I saw this video of tom where the interviewer and producer or whoever (idgaf) used his dyslexia and fear of spiders against him. Ill put the video and paragraph on here, but it just sickens me. They are normal people to, they are allowed to not be perfect. and that's okay. A perfect person would be a boring person. like who cares if people arent perfect, they dont have to be. whatever is up there didnt want us to be perfect. they wanted us to be human. and humans arent perfect. But using the things that are different about them against them is just wrong. 

okay so its not letting me upload the video, but if you would like, the video is on tomhollandmybeloved 's instagram and the first photo is the one above. sorry. (this part was written after everything else)

like look at how tom looks. hes clearly very shaken up and he looks sick after the interview and it makes me want to throw up just looking at him. this isnt how you should treat people. I just feel terrible and so so guilty that someone treated him like this. i wasnt even the one to do it and i feel terrible that another human did that. 

its absolutely heart breaking. Celebrities are people too.