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Dear Bea,

I just wanted to say thank you. you helped me through a really rough patch in my life and I wouldnt be the person I am today if it wasnt for your music.

This season was the best season ive ever had. I made so many close friends and I met my best friends through that team. I was happy with my life and I had fun, and that was all I could ever ask for. Then, I made a stupid decision that got me kicked off of the team. It wasnt who I was and  I just did it because I was trying to impress some people. I got kicked off the team and I was almost suspended or even expelled. ive never been more scared in my entire life. ive never been in trouble at school before, not even lunch detention, and  Im a good student. this was unlike me. I remember the day after it happened, I woke up thinking it was all a dream. everything in my life had changed in a matter of hours. it completely destroyed me. that day, I cried three times at school, which also never happens. and my friend who got in trouble with me, thought it was all a joke, making me feel worse. my health started deteriorating, both mentally and physically, and at one point, I went three days without talking to anyone. I wore sweatshirts and sweatpants to school everyday, not because I felt like it, but because I didnt have the energy to wear anything else. and I stopped doing my homework, causing my grades to drop. I just didnt have the energy to do anything anymore. I came home from school everyday and slept till six on my couch, then went upstairs to my room and slept till I had to get ready for school. I lost all of my friends except for one, because I just didnt put any effort into keeping those relationships. I was at an all time low. and then one day, I heard someone talking about your music. so I looked your album up. I thought it was so cool how you released your album by releasing "blue," "red," and "yellow" first and how your album was titled aurora because thats a mix of colors (I realize thats probably not why you called it that nor what aurora actually means, but thats just what popped into my head). I started listening to your album, and it got me motivated to get my life together. I remember playing it for the first time and getting up and cleaning my room. it was the first time I cleaned my room since it happened.It took some time, but after that day, I got my grades back up, fixed a few of my relationships with my friends, and finally had the energy to do things again.  without your music, I would still be in the state i was three months ago. i wouldnt have my amazing best friend, nor would I be the person I am right now. so thank you for helping me through that and thank you for helping me fix everything that went wrong.