S̶A̶N̶G̶U̶I̶N̶E̶ //|Jungkook|// complete~

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[ chapter includes mention of multiple mental illnesses and suicide, read at your own risk] 

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JK POV

               Stop acting like a child and just do it.But it's daylight now, cops will just come and stop me anyways. My thoughts conflict with each other as I sit on the couch on the rooftop. Heh...This world sure is crazy ...right? Or am I the crazy one? Everything I've been through in the past months..it's so unreal..Waking up in the middle of nowhere,rooming with two total strangers and even falling in love with another one..then getting my ass kicked for being too greedy. Maybe I am crazy... Maybe I was just some runaway from Busan, who forgot their memory. Maybe there is no such thing as fate, and I've just been a fool this whole time. Some kind of schizophrenic. Either way..I've made too many mistakes. I hurt the people I cared about. If I wasn't trying to be Mr.GoodGuy...and trying to be what I thought everyone wanted, and instead what they needed, then none of this would have happened...it's my fault and I don't know what to do or where to go... this situation is past fixing. I'll sleep, maybe when I wake up this nightmare will be over...

Yoongi POV

               I wake up in the morning with Hoseok next to me on his phone. Studying at the picture of Jungkook and Sungwon. Is he really that hurt by it? It's not like Sungwon matters now anyway...now that I'm here.

"Jagi, How long have you been up" I say frowning at him. I hope it wasn't because I hit Jungkook. I know he hates it when I get violent, I guess it was a little unnecessary....

"A while ...I had a Nightmare and Taehyung came over, He's asleep in Jungkook's-....The spare room" He says. Huh? Why did he call it the spare room.

"Hm? Did something happen? You called it 'spare room' " I say starting to get anxious.

"Jungkook left last night, No note or nothing..I didn't tell you because I knew you were mad at him and wouldn't have wanted to go find him..." Hoseok says shyly..He left?! God this is all my fault..

"No...there's no Way he would have left without a note or anything, He ALWAYS leaves notes, even before he leaves for school! He would put them in my bento boxes I take to work, right next to yours!" I say, getting out of bed quick to search.

             I check my lunch box but nothing is there. Great I start rummaging through the kitchen for any sign of anything, at all, but all I get is nothing. Fucking nothing. Hoseok runs in the room, Taehyung behind him.

"Jagi, calm down, I told you he didn't leave anything" Hoseok says grabbing my arm.

"No, This is my fault...I shouldn't have hit him ...I shouldn't have hurt him... what if he...God what have done!" A million things run through my mind of where he could be...None of them are good...Jail, lost.. murdered... I had heard from Seokjin and Cheonhi that the boy was depressed what if he pulled something?...I start crying just at the thought...he truly was like a son...my heart hurts so bad..

"Jagi?" Hoseok says as I hug close to him. Taehyung stands with a concerned expression painted over his face.However there was something else there too...almost like anger. Hoseok rubs my back gently, calming me down.It works, to an extent.

"Why did you start crying, I thought you were mad at him?" Hoseok asks. I fall silent. Why would I tell him? He will just worry more..But I can't lie..

"Well, After he hurt his knee...Seokjin and Cheonhi gave him an evaluation, given all the awful things that had taken place.... " I say , the two boys nod but im hesitant to continue until I feel Hoseok's hand in mine. I sit down at the table.

"They said he had some depressive issues and to keep an eye on him...But after last night...I ...Fucked up" I say almost crying again, Hoseok squeezes my hand. A look of terror spirals out onto Taehyung's face. He looks down at his scare, the one that matched Jungkooks, he closes his eyes. However, when he opens them..the glare is straight towards me...it's venomous. Then that angry bubble finally explodes.

"Yoongi hyung why did you have to hit him! Why can't you all let me fight my own battles?! You have always gotten in the way with me and Namjoon when we have disagreements and now you did with Jungkook! I get it, You want to protect me, and get that you have your reasons but look what happened! I love him and now, I may NEVER see him again" He starts crying and leaves the house. Hoseok puts his head down. I can tell he is already stressed because of the situation. He leaves the room and cleans my mess in the kitchen.

                I need to find him, find him before he does something stupid. Taehyung has a point, I am nosy. That's what caused this and I need to fix it now. I don't want Jungkook to get hurt anymore, and I don't want Hoseok stressing. Taehyung doesn't need more deaths in his life then he's already had to go through with his parents... and when I find him...... Park....Fucking....Jimin....will pay... people around here know not to piss me off. There's a reason for that. Haha...being nosy isn't always a bad thing Park boy. I go to stand up and almost trip on something. Candles? What? I pick them up along with Jungkook's ID. why are these here? I put them In pocket and join Hoseok.

...Jungkook...Please don't do anything stupid...

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~U.A.J